Forgive Myself

Humble and small I call out to you forgive me my sins, Oh God, I’m so Sorry I failed you.
I bow my head to pray.
I sit still basking in the quiet waiting to hear your spirit speak to me.
My hopes are pending on the edge of a precipice of doubts.
Life has beaten me and I let you down.
I’m overtaken by a perfect peace and I hear a whisper say, “First child Forgive yourself.”

Humbled and small I cry in clarity of the truth in the words, Oh God, It’s so hard to let go of the shame.
I start to meditate on the past year full of mistakes, regrets, hurts, and pains.
One by one I write them down and say them out loud followed by “I forgive myself God” and I tear them up and throw them out.
As I finish this task, a perfect peace overcame me and I hear a whisper, “Forgiveness is my gift to you my Child.”

Humble and small I pray to God with a thankful heart filled with love for a wise Heavenly Father, Oh God, you know me better than I know myself.
I begin to rebuild my world upon the new calm I have in my heart and start with a new beginning of joy and gratitude.
My life is now about serving God and helping others find hope and forgiveness for themselves.
Every night I settle up with God and I find that perfect peace in the divine forgiveness of God’s love.

Walk With Me

I see my future looking into your eyes
I know my heart’s desire is being with you for all time
Walk with me
Talk with me
Join me on this path
I guarantee my love will last

I hear you call my name over the loudest crowd
I feel your touch and the world disappears
Dance with me
Laugh with me
Join me on life’s journey
I guarantee my love will last

I taste the sweetness of your lips against mine
I search your soul and find my lifelong mate
Sing with me
Play with me
Join me on this winding road
I guarantee my love will last

A Simple Prayer

Lost, disillusioned, confused, bitter
Hands clasped in prayer
Lord, just comfort this wayward child.
Eyes closed and knees bent
Lord, please take away the pain.
I feel your warmth upon my soul.

The physical world limits me
The faith of my God eludes me
Escape with me
Escape to nothingness
Empty sky of blue nothingness

Hungry, malnutritioned, scared, crying
Lord, sustain me.
I will be your servant night and day
Thoughts cleaned and pure
Ready to listen
Lord, let your spirit fill me.
I don’t want to be hollow anymore
I want to know
Your love, your warmth
Lord, guide me
Lord, love me.

Truest Blessings

Darkness, voiceless pity, big eyes lost inside vacant night skies.
Hope dies against bloody hands.
Disguises, venom filled words, violent outburst shooting airborne like fireworks.
Faith sucked into a vacuum of a blackened soul.

War, chaos rules, strong willed pills swallowing goodness whole.
Mercy forgotten between screams of incoherent heartless murmurings.
Woe, craziness over takes, rage swings fists of fury in every direction without discretion.
Love disappears into cracks ripped into the fabric of what was a family.

Exhaustion, faults exposed, everyone stares their whispers carry on the wind.
Grace so needed here yet so far away it seems lost to a black hole.
Eternity, failure eminent, options are dwindling as the authorities lights are circling.
Peace a distant memory of days long past when laughter used to be heard within these walls.

Believe, God hears, prayers are being said for you every day my friends.
Kindness is here for you and ready to extend its comfort when you are ready to receive it.
Blessings, goodness remains, don’t give up with the hardest of times comes the truest of blessings.
Forgiveness will be your salvation and guide to finding the way back to freedom and happiness.