The Hell of It

tonight i'm pounding an upbeat drum that is rolling down hill faster then i can run.
if these are the trials and tribulations i can't complain others have greater pain.
i try to remain emotionally intact, but misery loves to knock me off track.
he's still inside of me keeping me strong;
i'm still in love with him, lies and all!

i back peddle and switch gears just to hold on.
it's not easy loving someone whose half way out the door.
he doesn't feel regret and he never looks back.
he's the one i have to do better for.
tonight i'm rolling the dice right off the cliff.
there's no sense in playing if you're afraid to lose.

there are so many thoughts rattling around my brain,
but my heart is sold and he has my soul.
the closer i try to get to him the harder he is to find.
inside i'm out of control screaming maniac crazy person.
all you see is raised eyebrows and a grin.
i have no idea where this love goes,
but i'll keep on the road until we crash and burn.

everything works better when you have control.
i was bluffing when i said i could let you go.
you're a better gambler then me and it shows.
you hold all the cards i've built my feelings on.
at any moment you could knock me down just for the hell of it!