He's Never Far

he's never far; either in my thoughts or in these scars he carved into my heart.

he's never far; his smile or his hazel eyes are burned into every tear
and every twinkle of my eyes.

he's never far; his memory makes me feel and i miss him.
i miss the pain and i miss saying his name.

it's hard to be here.
he's so near but so far away.
his warmth is beyond my reach.
the reality brought us crashing down.
i feel the full weight its gravity upon my chest.
he's never far, but he's far enough away to not be mine anymore.

he's never far; either in my dreams or these words being shared with the world.

he's never far; his laugh or his caresses are casting a long shadow over me.

he's never far; time is slow to erase his mark. i miss it.
i miss him and i love it and i hate it.

it's hard to be here.
alone but haunted by the sweetest memories.
he's so near and he's so dear to me.
i feel by now i should have moved on.
he's never far, but he's oh so near!