auction off my soul to the highest ebay bidder. there's no where to go but down. i hit the bottom but kept digging into the stone that's called my heart. i forget all the time what once was mine. like you. like her. like happiness. i forget it all so easily.
the trappings of success are seductively soft and i want them just to want something. my own desires only a mirror of what i see on t.v. i don't know what i want. i can't finish...
pick up what's left of my smile. it used to light up the world and show me the way. now i've metamorphasized into despair wrapped in layers of various moods of misdirection. i'm scared. i'll let go. i'm too destructive to be in the public population. if a were a rabid dog i'd been euthanized for everyone's safety by now.
burnt beyond recognition. i try to pass as a humane human being. the clock tells me time is running out. the calendar marks off the days until my final performance. i always stay too long. i crash into places uninvited. i already tried to change and be someone you'd all love, but i'm not. i'll just stop...
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