Let Love Be

i'm losing it. i'm falling apart, like leaves falling off the trees in the fall.
i'm losing it all. i feel barren, like the desert landscape in a calendar on a cubicle wall.
i can't think past this second.
this moment is swallowing me whole.
i'm stuck on a blank screen.
the hour glass is taunting me.
i feel wound up with no release.

i feel disconnected. i hear and see all that surround me, but none of it matters to me.
this mode i'm running in has me run down.
the cycle i'm pedaling through never seems to end.
i need a little motivation to break away and blow this monotony up.

i long for passion to take root and plant some chaos into my life.
my days aren't anything to remember.
i'm drowning in all this ordinary.
normal never suited me.
i know i hate the heartbreak when it ends, but sometimes the thrill is worth the crash landing.

these blues are making my world gray. it's daunting to force a change.
i keep looking around, but my eyes aren't ready to take anybody in.
all these people running around hooking up then breaking up looks like misery to me.
i need to win the war but these battles keep crushing my self-esteem.

sunshine and daisies were never my style and it never used to bother me.
is it age or loneliness taking their toll on me?
i wonder if it's time to give up and just let love be.