Dancing Back & Forth

I’ve got a million voices in my head and not a single one is mine anymore.
I’ve forgotten what my own voice sounds like anymore.
I’m stuck between heaven, earthly delights and hell’s burning fires.
Break my feet so I have to learn to walk again it’s the only way I can fix this mess.
All of me is a complete wreck!

I watch myself behind confused eyes like wires are shorted inside my brain.
I’m trying to rewire myself to get back to original programming but the manual is lost.
God hears my every thought so he knows I’m dancing back and forth a lot.
I don’t have any rhythm and all the music is off key.
I’ve never been a singer anyway!

These messages are jumping the tracks God is trying to lay them as fast as he can.
I am working towards salvation one prayer, one scripture, and one repentance at a time.
Frantically, I search inside my soul for those pieces that are shattered past redemption.
I listen to the silence inside and outside of me for His still small voice waiting for deliverance.
I’m struggling to bask inside the glow of God’s love.

Icy hands and burning questions leading up to fired up true confessions.
God can’t be deceived so excuses won’t be accepted; I must stand up and admit my faults.
My imperfections are woven into the fabric of my every atom I can’t remove them on my own.
I need to lean on God to cleanse myself and purify my heart to become whole.
I hear His angels sweetly singing my name they’re calling out to me to join in their praise.

Pages make a story that go in books that have a beginning, middle and an end.
People see this and wish life was so neat and easy to define and fit into their worlds.
God has a plan that plays to His own designs that doesn’t answer to our little desires.
I will follow where He leads whatever He has decided in His plan for me.
My life is His now to do His will and I now know peace, love, and comfort from above, amen!