I Need!

I need glasses to see clearly anymore.
life's become blurry inside my head.
i can't hear inside myself because the outside has invaded every part of me.
i want to be closer to God.
i want to be closer to my own heart.

i need a pen to write down my thoughts.
if i don't capture the words when they come they get lost.
as i age i struggle to remember everything.
my mind grows weak and dark.
i want to be enlightened again with God's presence.
i want the Holy Spirit to touch my soul once more.

i need a song to move my soul with emotions.
i have grown cold and lost to life's subtle cues.
i have fallen into apathy's trap.
i walk among my fellow humans insensitive to their sufferings.
i want to be healed by God's love.
i want to feel God's grace work through me again.

i need God!
i tried to live in denial.
i stood on the mountain top alone in knowledge.
i thought if i didn't care i wouldn't hurt, but the pain festered and burned.
my sanctuary was my prison.
i want God to hear my prayers.
i want to talk to God like he his my best friend.

i need God's love to be free.
God forgive my ignorance and selfishness.
my fear drove me underground to hide from you.
i see now God you bring me comfort and peace.
i had you in my heart the whole time.
i had you waiting to take me back all along!