Baby Bird

i'm in the middle of an internal war.
i tug and pull trying to free myself from sin.
my soul is half light and half darkness.
i make a little progress towards good
and i hear my screams in my dreams.
i cry and the salt burns my eyes.

you reach out to pull me to safety.
i try to hold on but it's not working.
i can't meet all the demands.
i feel the world crushing my chest.
i hear the whispers, has she lost it yet?
i turn to Jesus and fall into his words.
i hope when i emerge i am healed.

i feel like a baby bird that's fallen out of the nest.
i'm still new in the ways of good.
i don't know how to fly yet.
i'm trying to gather all the scraps of my past.
i want to put them to rest.
what is the point of starting over if you forget why you need to?

i see the stage set for my first performance.
there's an audience of one.
He sees what's on my mind
and what's in my heart.
His love is all that matters.
i've had a 1,000 chances, but he never tires.
He always welcomes me home.

this is the beginning of a new me.
i've tried before, but i never get to the happy ending.
i always fell off the wagon,
but i've never taken it this seriously before.
i carry His words everywhere with me.
i use His spirit like a shield to protect me.
i know my time grows short.
the only person i keep hurting is myself.

my eternity will be whatever i make it to be.
God will be with every step i take.
my faith is armor that covers me.
i will fight my battles day by day.
every choice i make brings me closer to heaven or hell.
there's no one else i can blame if i fail!
i accept God's will.