Soul for Sale

what exists outside of me means nothing.
it's what i hold onto inside of me
that brings meaning to my life.
money and possessions are pointless,
only God's love can bring me happiness.

i cannot buy a new soul on sale.
i cannot auction my heart on ebay.
if i turn myself toward the light,
the darkness will no longer surround me.
it's up to me to choose the good.
no one else can make the choice for me.

we each have a journey on this earth.
the path is a straight line,
but there are many temptations along the way.
my own journey to God is unique.
no one walks to the same beat in their head.
i seek to understand beyond what my senses can comprehend.
I physically cannot capture what I crave.

the sun lights up this page i'm writing on.
i feel courage pouring into me.
i sense a new boldness taking hold of me.
i cannot love what i cannot keep.
i read God's word like a starved lion.
i feast upon the spirit of his sacrificed lamb.

my depression is just me being homesick.
i was missing God and his spirit.
i couldn't tell good from evil.
i had gotten lost on my way home
and my life reflected this.

i've been struggling to see what was right in front of me.
the light got flipped on, and suddenly,
the answers were given to me.
you are what you read.
you are what you hear.
you are what you say.
you are what you do.
my perceptions were turned away from the Lord.
i am filled with joy to be back on track.
Amen!!!