At War

i follow the doctor's orders to the letter to feel better.
i need to apply the same principal to the 10 commandments to save my soul.
in my system, good goes gray and bad hangs around me in a purple haze.
i can't find my center.
the wii says i'm always leaning to the right,
but i'm always wrong!

there's an emptiness looming on my horizon.
i live two hours away from anyone i care about.
i have a lot more time coming into my hands.
i need some good directions,
but all i got is a high speed internet connection.

i'd love to have unlimited resources, but i don't.
money will be tight for awhile.
this is my time to do something for me,
but i don't know what i want.

i feel anxious, nervous, and confused.
it is an illusion they sold to me.
answers come with age, is what they told me.
maybe, i'm just not old enough yet!

i click on one button to post this to my blog.
i have not been able to find such a button inside me to push to motivate myself.
in my head, words become weapons and emotions liabilities.
i can't locate my safe haven.
the good book states that peace begins within,
but i'm always raging my own internal war!