The Hippie in Me

the hippie in me still loves to go picking wildflowers.
i know it's silly, but i hope for world peace.
i find skipping around outside to be fun.
and heartache can be sung away with the strum of an acoustic guitar.

the hippie in me doesn't wear a bra on the weekends.
i go barefoot to feel the grass tickle my feet.
i play hide n go seek with the dog.
and i want to share a coke with the world.

the hippie in me is shunning make up and botox.
i'm eating organic.
i recycle so the earth won't die.
and i believe one day every one will truly love each other.

the hippie in me shares her love freely.
she is hopeful and optimistic.
the sun warms her soul and lifts her spirits.
i'd love to see her more often.

the hippie in my never stays,
but like a merry go round,
once in awhile she comes around,
and man, it's a beautiful ride!

New Directions

I'm your desire.
I stroke your inner fires.
I'm enthralled by your touch.
And you can't resist me.
We are going down the wrong way,
On a one way street.
This will end badly, it always does.
If I could be strong I'd walk away,
But you know my will power has atrophied.

He walked in and blew me away.
I stand here in shocked disbelief.
The years I spent hiding away you just
ripped right through all my paper thin exuses.
Now I'm exposed for the fearful neurotic mess I've become.

I'm turning down paths unknown.
I'm steering my own destiny instead of sitting in the backseat of my life.
Time never stops and I have to embrace the now.
I don't want to waste what I preceive as my last chance to dance with happiness.
If I was logical about this I'd run away, but I know I've been swept away by your kisses.

He says words that speak to my soul.
I sit here amazed by him.
The hours I've spent talking to him have shown me more truth then a 1,000 sins.
Now I'm feeling emotions I hadn't felt since I was a kid.

The map has changed my course.
I was heading south, but my heart has turned west towards you.
This new direction to you is beautiful to me.
You're breaking me down to help me find out who I am.
You are becoming my true north.
No lies.
No secrets.
No promises we can't keep.

He is setting me free.
And I want to be the woman he see somewhere inside of me.
I want to never leave his gaze.
I will strip down before him and stand tall.
Letting him prove to me how beautiful I am to him.

He walked in and blew me away.

Everybody Knows

Pretty pink polish on her little toes
Pretty blue eyes and a cute upturned nose
She’s beautiful today
And she knows she’ll be gorgeous when she grows up
And it shows
In her smile
In her giggle
In the way she flips her hair
She’s a woman in waiting
Eager and confident to discover her charms
She knows the boys will love her
When she gets all grown up
She’s learning the walk
And someday she’ll get down the talk
It goes by so fast
Mommy’s little girl loves dolls today
But mommy knows it will go away
No more little girl ways
She’s beautiful in every way
And tomorrow she’ll be gorgeous
Everyone knows

I am Shattered

You take little pieces of me and if you put them together you'll see there are some pieces missing out of me. I am shattered. I've been torn and scattered. I don't add up to a whole person anymore. I am shattered.

I've given so much of me to you, I don't have all it takes to be myself anymore. I am shattered. I've been broken and discarded. I have ripped corners and lost pieces. I don't know where to look to find me anymore. I am shattered.

I've been tossed aside and pushed down. I got tape wrapped around my heart. I am shattered. There's glue oozing out of my soul. I can't fix myself anymore. I am shattered.

I tried too hard to pretend I didn't need my own identity. I was shallow. I am shattered. I was a cookie cutter image of your fantasy woman. I wasn't real. You weren't satisfied. I am shattered.

You said I had no depth. You wanted a woman that was more than your projection. I had no character. I am shattered. I was purely fiction. You left and my glass world shattered. I am shattered.

I surrounded myself with lies. I dressed up in a pretty disguise. I never considered you'd get tired of your own creation. I am shattered. I didn't have to think. I just asked how high? I didn't need to wonder. I just gave you what you wanted. I am shattered.

I even hid from myself. Who needs personality when you are wearing a huge diamond ring? Now I know I am not what you want anymore. I am shattered. I am only physically pleasing to you. I lack intellectual appeal. I am shattered.

You took a walk and I tried to talk and open up to you. You pulled back the veil on your painting and discovered a blob of nothing. I hadn't developed any interests therefore I'm not interesting enough for you. I am shattered. I just repeated what ever you'd say. If you liked something then I'd like it too. I don't know what I don't like. I am shattered.

I am just a shadow in heels. You finally saw a completed picture. And you left me. I am shattered. I threw the glass world you gave me at your back and it shattered. What is up is down and what is down is up. I don't know what to wear anymore because you haven't picked it out. I am shattered.

I am confused. I am naked. I am battered. I am shaken. I am raw. I am exposed. I am cold. I am alone. I can't think. I am overwhelmed. I am shattered. And finally I can live because now I'm shattered.