Power Surge

i'm having a power surge!
i feel strong and ready to take on the world.
maybe it was the sex or dropping 2 more pounds,
but i want to skip, jump, and dance all day long!

life takes an unexpected turn,
you thought you were done, but you talked it out.
now he's back, but nothing's clear.
all you have is how wonderful he makes you feel!

i'm not thinking, i'm just going with the flow.
there's no second guessing, no future planning,
just him holding me close.
i don't have any other plans,
so why can't i just have some fun!
this isn't a relationship, we're just screwing around.

i'm cracking, popping, snapping and i love it.
i feel on top of the world and i want more.
these hormones got me wound up or maybe it's him,
but i want to do him over and over again.

sex was never the problem.
we've always done that beyond well.
it's our personalities that keep on clashing.
we're both control freaks wanting to have the last word!

this isn't a fairytale and there's no happy ending.
i won't stick a label on it or try to defend it.
i have him for now and i'm going to just enjoy it.
i'm switching off my brain and letting my sexual needs drive this thing.

if i should let me heart back into his domain then i'm the idiot.
he's been very clear, he's not staying forever.
so i'm jumping off this cliff of uncertainty with both feet.
i'm accepting that i will probably get hurt,
but all i want is how he makes me feel!

On The Floor

i meant no harm when i took your arm
i used every one of my many charms
and you fell for me hard.
the sky fell in on us.
we thought forever could never be long enough.
at least until the hormones wore off.

i made a wish it never happened,
but life doesn't work that way.
all my memories pile up on me
and the pain is smothering me.
i lie collapsed and shaking on the floor.

i am not sure how to proceed.
i am unconvincing when it comes to pandering.
i would like to cut to the chase,
but honesty is overrated these days.
i wish i could skip the next few weeks.

hints have been dropped.
game pieces have been assigned.
you have your side and i have mine.
we spin round and round
until i lose my grip.
i lie collapsed and shaking on the floor.

we aren't speaking but we talk.
tension radiates and surrounds us.
every word we don't say is killing me.
how do people live this way?
i'm ready to tap dance right out the door.

i wish i could see the humor in it.
all the world laughs without me.
i killed our love and blamed it on religon.
i had second thoughts.
i blamed all the bad on you.
i feel like a fraud.
i break down and cry.
again, i lie collapsed and shaking on the floor.

So Goes the TV

aw man what a day!
i was confused.
i was sad.
i was anxious.
i was well fed.

i was loud.
i was hyper.
i was bitchy.
i was gassy

nothing escaped me.
my mind fled the scene.
i was pure emotion.
rolling, just rolling on my hormonal waves.

so my kid has the tv on
and it amuses me,
but if she leaves,
so goes the TV!!!