A Heavy Heart

insanity furrows my brow.
i'm frenzied to find a way out.
problems run across my mind.
solutions are just beyond my reach.
i'm angry then bored.
i shut myself down for the night.
maybe in my sleep i'll unwind.

depression fuels my frown.
i truly have a heavy heart.
it beats so slowly it almost stops.
i've been waiting for a friend,
but no one comes here.
i swim in my tears
and make me a blanket from my fears.

recklessness has formed my scars.
i'm patched together by threads of hope.
i bury myself behind my anxiety.
my hands are so wrung they look older then i am.
my fractures criss and cross along my soul.
i long to once again be whole,
but the light fades before the idea can take hold.

caution defines every step i take.
heavy sighs follow every breath.
it hurts in ways i don't understand.
i belong to no one here.
i once had pockets full of dreams.
now i'm broken out of my seams.
i've betrayed myself against my own wishes.