On The Floor

i meant no harm when i took your arm
i used every one of my many charms
and you fell for me hard.
the sky fell in on us.
we thought forever could never be long enough.
at least until the hormones wore off.

i made a wish it never happened,
but life doesn't work that way.
all my memories pile up on me
and the pain is smothering me.
i lie collapsed and shaking on the floor.

i am not sure how to proceed.
i am unconvincing when it comes to pandering.
i would like to cut to the chase,
but honesty is overrated these days.
i wish i could skip the next few weeks.

hints have been dropped.
game pieces have been assigned.
you have your side and i have mine.
we spin round and round
until i lose my grip.
i lie collapsed and shaking on the floor.

we aren't speaking but we talk.
tension radiates and surrounds us.
every word we don't say is killing me.
how do people live this way?
i'm ready to tap dance right out the door.

i wish i could see the humor in it.
all the world laughs without me.
i killed our love and blamed it on religon.
i had second thoughts.
i blamed all the bad on you.
i feel like a fraud.
i break down and cry.
again, i lie collapsed and shaking on the floor.