Rain Rain Go Away

it's raining outside,
it's pouring in my mind.
gray, black, and white splashes of ominous emotions float quickly through me.
who was i to you?

scenes in my head play out like a black comedy.
i played your game without the rules.
i lost.
are you amused?

knowing me like you thought you did,
you never guessed i'd hit the fan.
i couldn't keep from talking.
yeah, i ran my damn mouth.
it amazes me how long i kept it shut,
that's how much i loved you until you broke my heart.

the air is cooling down like my desire for you.
the passion has burnt itself out.
i've gone no where but i never hear from you.
do you think about me anymore?

i've taken all the pain and wrote it down.
i've filled hundreds of pages and it keeps coming.
i should put them in a book and send it to your woman.
would that piss you off?

you always called me crazy.
you always lectured me on who to be.
i wasn't good enough for you.
i would never be her.
i should've known i'd be the one dumped on my ass.
but i kept loving you until you broke my heart.

My Mouth

sorry i hurt your feelings
when i opened my mouth without thinking.
i go off half cocked alot.
i've tried to stop,
but like a ticking time bomb,
i always explode!

my mouth is my doom.
it brings me pleasure
and causes me heartache too.
i talk more then i should.
i say things that should never be heard.
my mouth tells lies.
my mouth tells truth.
my mouth opens and chaos ensues.

sorry i made you cry
when i said good bye.
i wasn't thinking of you.
i'm selfish and cruel.
i've tried to stop,
but like a bullet shot from a gun,
my triggers already been pulled.

my mouth is on automatic pilot.
i never know what it'll do.
i've prayed for God to make me mute.
i want to play well with others,
but my mouth interfers.
it utters inappropiate comments
and my mouth suffers from a foot disease.

i'm tired of always apologizing.
i have run out of excuses to give.
this is how i've always been.
i was late to speak,
but i haven't shut up since.
so tune me out or toughen up,
because my mouth will strike again!