Wrestle the Devil

i keep waiting for something awesome to happen to me.
i'm lazy!
i need to pull my head out of my ass.
i'd rather dream my life away then work too hard.
i love to play!
i'd like to do that everyday, but i get bored.
i've forgotten i'm capable enough to learn new things.
my downward spiral into inactivity has hit rock bottom.
i have to dust off my inner sun and let it shine!

i can write so why can't i sing too?
i can walk so now it's time to run.
i can talk so now i should say something important.
i can love so now i should show someone.
i have all these skill being unused.
i'm taking a step back so i can move forward.

i'm done waiting for the world to take notice.
my attitude is shifting back into alignment.
i'm not going to worry about tomorrow.
today is the only day that matters.
every moment requires my attention.
i'll wrestle the devil out of these details
and i will conquer my inner demons!

When I Go

i find time to do nothing
i look around for something i can't remember what
you think i linger too much
on heartache and sorrow
you find me repeative and boring
i wish i could be as articulate as you
when i go i'll remember to take you with me
into that nothingness you insist is
our destination
we just die. no heaven. no hell.
just leave behind our empty shell to cease
i'll find out when you do
cuz when i go i'll take you with me

i am a liar
i am less of a person
and more of a sorry excuse
you think i should go out and live
you say i need to embrace the day
i wish i could be as brave as you
when i go i'll remember to take you with me
into the hole 6 feet down into the cold
rotting flesh of the dead
we just die. no spirit world. no afterlife.
just bodies turning back into dirt
i'll make sure we can both know the truth
cuz when i go i'm taking you with me

when i see the light
i hope you don't
when i hear the angels sing
i hope you hear the devil's laughter
when you and i don't believe the same
and nothing i say persuades you
there's only one thing i can do
when i die i'm taking you with me
so i can say i told u so...