Rent Free

a couple of clicks of the mouse and i sent your cheating heart out to her.
she was clueless, but now she's aware.
you aren't up on her pedestal anymore.
i shot an arrow through all of our hearts.

you told me you'd never talk to me again.
the fallout from you was expected.
i'm hoping now that the cord between us has been so coldly severed i can move on from you.
you weren't good to me.
i'm a person, but you only took from me.

i feel in control finally.
i'm sad she had to be caught in the middle.
i have to take what i've learned from you dominance of me.
i can't let you live rent free in my head anymore.

my stomach turns at the thought of coming face to face with you.
so far you've stayed away.
i didn't mean to chase you off of facebook or out of your apartment.
time will heal these wounds too!

i know you'll twist my words into what you need.
i wasn't able to tell you our relationship was hurting me.
when you touch me i lose all my senses.
there was only one way i could think to end this.
i crossed that line and now i need to stay strong.

i didn't matter to you.
you hurt me again and again and i LET YOU!!!
i have to accept that i created my own cage and gave you the key.
i have to answer to myself why i let you use me without mercy.
i have forgiveness in my heart for you,
and with time it'll get better for all of us!

Scared Little Boy

the more things change, the more i get screwed
there is no me, there is no you
we are two people unattached to each other
you try to light a fire under me,
but after all your ranting i just want to cry.

you take the words i say and twist their meaning
nothing means everything to you
i'm sad to be back in your convoluted circle
a part of me will always love you
but i'm sick of you telling me what to do
maybe it was better when you weren't speaking to me

you tell me you love me to death
that explains why it's killing me to have you around
you're an expert swimmer in muddy water
you tell me to figure out what i want
that's easy, i'm crazy, because i want you

the more i need you, the more you disappear
you've been an optical illusion all along
you look like a man, you talk like a man
but underneath all that bravado,
you're just a scared little boy!