A Lonely Person

i'm a lonely person but i made myself that way. the agony is a beautiful harmony to me. i see the error of my ways but only from the rear view mirror. pull back the curtains on my windows, open the blinds let the sun blind me. but it's light brings me no warmth to my heart. i've moved out from love's reach. too scared to love and too afraid to feel.

i'm a desparate woman but i made myself that way. the rejection a beautiful melody to my ears. i see the mistakes i've laid and paid my dues, but the lessons never last longer then my heart's returned hunger. open the doors. let the winter wind blow all the cobwebs away. feel the chill up my spine, feel the cold in my chest. now this is more like home sweet home, cold and alone.

i'm a stupid person but i made myself that way. the abandonment is a beautiful sad song to my soul. i see the problems with every face even though i've forgotten most of their names, it's all so clear looking back throughout the years.

i never got the hang of relationships. the give. the take. the yin. the yang. i never could follow i had to be the leader. i should behave, but i'm too far gone to change. i'm lonely, desparate, and stupid. yeah, back then, and with him, and there too, and now. i never changed and i never will. i see my ONE big mess everday in the mirror, she's why i'll never be anything but lonely, desparate, and stupid.