Eyes Shut

i'm lying here with my eyes tightly shut.
i don't want to open them,
just so i can watch you drive away.
i wish i'd known to say good bye.

with my eyes shut i can pretend,
pretend you will be back again.
i didn't know that would be the last time.
i wish i'd known you and i would end on angry words.
now you won't even respond to me.

i was full of hope.
i thought i'd finally found,
a connection, genuine and true,
a friend and a lover,
but my life cannot maintain,
a lover and a friend.
i can't have either one.

i'm lying here with my eyes tightly shut.
i can't bring myself to open them,
because i know they'll never see you again.
and i miss you more then i can comprehend.

Returning an Unwanted Favor

it's okay dear, all your tears have been cried.
it's okay here, we've dumped your fears to the past.
no one knows the way home.
stars shoot across the blackened sky
just like the fire light that dances then dies.

you trapped yourself up on a pedastool.
i knew you'd never admit defeat.
i captured the whole fiasco on tape.
i had to prove to you he was more then you could take,
but i received hate instead of thanks.

it's okay dear, i get it.
it's okay here, i already forgave you.
no one knows their fate.
dogs howl at every moon,
just like you fall in love with every fool.

i was here before too, hooked on lies.
blue eyes that hypnotize,
you pulled me to safety before i drowned.
you had to prove to me i was wrong
and i never said thank you,
but i'm returning the unwanted favor now.

it's okay dear, i won't let you drown.
it's okay here, there's always tomorrow to find another happily ever after.