Go Ahead and Scream

i have to sleep if i'm going to church.
i have to think even if it hurts.
one little ache echoes throughout my nervous system.
i fall wounded but aware onto my bed where i no longer care.

turn a trick to pay the rent.
it's nothing without love.
i find God in my heart but hate in my thoughts.
there's no more excuses to buy me more time.

dreaming of portals to take me back in time.
undo some mistakes, take some chances i didn't take.
learn if i would still be here and if i'd still cry.
what if i live better in another dimension?
could i swap out the old for the new?
put into circulation an upgrade of me that everyone wants to love.

confusion bends my eyes to see flaws and discrepancies everywhere.
i don't balance my checkbook.
i hate all the fees when i come out red,
it is such a horrible color for me.

space is a vacuum of darkness,
go ahead and scream, no one hears it out there
and down here no one cares.
so take the sharpest thought you got,
stab at the world's toughest problems.
save the poor, feed the pot bellied children,
go and fight a war thousands of years in the making.
the weapons are vastly improved, but the games still dirty.

i can't stay on one subject for too long.
i zig then i zag.
i look at every price tag.
i can't find what it is i'm looking for.
the catalogs and web sites only want me to buy more.

this is unknown territory for me,
but i fearlessly march right into it.
a stick or a bullet can kill.
i fight battles that aren't real.
my spirit is starved from lack of inspirational prose,
so i'll got to bed so i can go to church tomorrow
and find the purpose i lost long ago.

Clean and Clear or Sunday's Call

sweet child of God raise your sleeping eyes,
hear my holy spirit urging you to rise
and begin the day with my son by your side.
come to me in your place of worship.
you'll find peace inside the chaos of your mind.
my promises are uncompromised for you to receive your blessings just drop your guard.
all will be clear when you surrender to my love.

walk into my arms sweet child of mine.
the sins repented through your sorrowful tears.
let the fear go.
i am in every beat of your heart.
walk into my arms sweet daughter of mine.
all will be clean for you again.

you are not unworthy to ascend to the heavenly gates.
intelligence and science are of the tactile world.
there's no place in faith for statistics and facts.
only love can lead you through all the temptations.
all will be clear when you surrender to my love.

carry me in your every thought.
wait for me to guide you.
the voice of my spirit is soft yet firm.
focus on that solace and put your doubts onto my shoulders.
feel again daughter of mine.
feel your joyous salvation.
all will be clean again for you.

amen, amen, amen!
be blessed.
pray.
read my words every day and go to church.
this will heal your fractured heart,
whirlwind thoughts and tormented soul.
it's simple.
all will be clear once you surrender to my love.