God Loves You

i'm too scared to admit i love you.
this time with you has been like living in a dream.
every moment has been one to remember.
the fear of giving my heart to you has nothing to do with you.
i've got a road of broken promises behind me.
you've been the picture of patience.
you wait for my timid heart to emerge.
God loves you and so do I.

we talk about everything and nothing.
your smile lights up my world.
before you i was gray
now everyday is in vibrant color.
i feel the ice cracking.
i hear my laughter and i no longer feel hollow.

i'm too afraid to say i love you.
you looked me right in the eyes,
your blue ones full of sincerity,
as you whispered i love you
and you kissed me so gently i fell apart.
you held me as i cried and all of my past was spilling out onto your shirt.
why couldn't i speak the truth?
God loves you and so do I.

you and i are the dynamic duo.
i've become a part of your life and you are all of mine.
all we do is find ways to be together.
this is real and i feel it too.
i don't see a boy but the man i love.
it has me confused and i know you can't wait forever.

i've let my insecurities stop me from loving you.
letting go of the hurt is so hard to do.
your embrace welcomes and warms me.
today you told me you couldn't do it anymore.
i'm frantic; in a total panic; i'm losing you.
my breathing has become shallow, i'm sweating all over.
tell him, tell him, tell him
God loves you and baby so do i!!!

i love you, i love you, i love you.
I'm hopelessly, head over heels, in love with you.
please hear me and come back to me.

Wash Me Away

there's plenty of work for me to do but it sits.
i feel flustered and unfocused.
my thoughts hop from one to another like the Easter bunny going house to house.
i can't decide on anything and my mind begins to bend.
15 minutes ago i was in a good mood.
then out of the blue the shades were drawn and now i'm confused and scattered.

oh, how this disease plays to win.
an attitude for every minute of every day.
the tidal waves of crushing emotions wash me away.
all that remains is a sea of exhaustion for me to drown!

there's concern knocking on the door for me.
i feel forgotten and underwhelmed.
my heart skips a beat or two trying to contain my panic.
i can't overcome it; and my hands begin to tremble.
yesterday went by so fast, but today's misery drags.
i need to hold on to the up's but the down's come too quickly.
now i'm distraught and shattered.

oh, how this disease taunts me.
a feeling for every color in the spectrum.
the storm's rain is washing me away.
all that remains is a shell full of negative space!

there's more despair then hope left here.
i feel fearful and misunderstood.
my soul bounces around different ideas to save it.
i can't settle for what tied me over before.
two days ago peace evaporated and has yet to return.
i thirst for the refreshing taste of calm.
now i'm empty and broken.

oh, how this disease destroys me.
these moods come and go as they please.
i scrub so hard to try and wash it away.
all that remains is me getting sucked down the drain.

oh,how this disease washes me away!