God Loves You

i'm too scared to admit i love you.
this time with you has been like living in a dream.
every moment has been one to remember.
the fear of giving my heart to you has nothing to do with you.
i've got a road of broken promises behind me.
you've been the picture of patience.
you wait for my timid heart to emerge.
God loves you and so do I.

we talk about everything and nothing.
your smile lights up my world.
before you i was gray
now everyday is in vibrant color.
i feel the ice cracking.
i hear my laughter and i no longer feel hollow.

i'm too afraid to say i love you.
you looked me right in the eyes,
your blue ones full of sincerity,
as you whispered i love you
and you kissed me so gently i fell apart.
you held me as i cried and all of my past was spilling out onto your shirt.
why couldn't i speak the truth?
God loves you and so do I.

you and i are the dynamic duo.
i've become a part of your life and you are all of mine.
all we do is find ways to be together.
this is real and i feel it too.
i don't see a boy but the man i love.
it has me confused and i know you can't wait forever.

i've let my insecurities stop me from loving you.
letting go of the hurt is so hard to do.
your embrace welcomes and warms me.
today you told me you couldn't do it anymore.
i'm frantic; in a total panic; i'm losing you.
my breathing has become shallow, i'm sweating all over.
tell him, tell him, tell him
God loves you and baby so do i!!!

i love you, i love you, i love you.
I'm hopelessly, head over heels, in love with you.
please hear me and come back to me.

The Harder We Love

you are my purpose. my light gravitates to yours.
you and i entwined in passion's embrace erasing our past mistakes.
it feels good to hurt this way. i ache when you're away.
your kisses hold the cure. your touch purifies my soul.
together we achieve nirvana on an earthly plane.
light fills our empty spaces and the dark shadows are chased away.
there's power in our love. we've only scratched the surface.
the closer we become the deeper we trust. the harder we love!

you are my heart. my being vibrates with joy when you are near.
you and i talking about the day chases our blues away.
it amazes me how well we are in tune. i compliment you.
your energy energizes my lethargic ways.
together the world cannot help but bow to our demands.
love overcomes the most hateful of souls and we gain control.
there's no shame in our emotions. we show them proudly, like a badge of honor.
the more we proclaim our love for each other the deeper we care. the harder we love!

you are my need. my happiness depends on yours.
you and i laughing at nothing satisfies me.
it feels like the first time every time we touch.
your desire for me jolted me out of my misery. you awakened me.
together we ignite each other's fires.
luck brought us together and we've never looked back.
there's magic in our chemistry. time can't destroy us.
the faster we explore each other the deeper we become inside the other. the harder we love!

Supermoon

i confess my love to you with anxious breath.
i wait for your response, breathlessly, for you to talk.
then you break the silence with i'm falling for you too.
happiness replaces my fear and i feel like i've taken flight.
frenzied kisses and hugs embrace our newly declared love.

there's technicalities everywhere.
there's baggage to be lifted out of the way,
but i'm willing to do the heavy lifting to keep you.
now i know you love me too! you love me too!

i knew from the first phone call you were different.
you want to disappear into us like i do.
we both show each other our insecurities.
we are exchanging our deepest secrets.
we fit together so perfectly, it's a little scary!

i spend all my seconds with you on my mind.
my body aches to feel you inside.
love has never felt so alive!
i'd do anything for just one kiss.
i feel possessive.
i want you to be mine until the end of time!

we're attempting to create a new life together.
you love to be intimate with me.
and i revel in every touch!
my body is ready for you at the sound of your name.
this love cannot be tamed.

tonight we'll make love outside under the supermoon on your kid's trampoline.
you'll fill me with your seed.
the two of us, naked, covered in the sweat of our love's labors.
we will make a memory that will last forever!

Marriage and Crazy Bombs

my heart is heavy with love for you.
every time you enter me it feel like the first time.
i can't tell you enough how much i need you.
if i affirm your hold on me, will you stay?

i have to touch you when you are near, it's a reflex.
last night i cried and my knees gave out on me!
no man has ever given me this level of pleasure before.
you break me down then build me up even higher.

you mentioned marriage and crazy bombs last night.
i can't believe marriage is on your mind!
the only crazy thing i got in my head right now is your dick!
i'm not perfect, but you are the best anti-depressant i've ever been on!

you treat me with affection and respect.
your touch is perfection, your kiss brings me bliss.
you never miss the mark; you know my heart!
i can't wait to bare your child!
i can't wait to see you hold her!
to know the two of us created her out of our love for each other!
my hopes soar when i'm with you.

you say you'll never let me go.
you talk about me dumping you, but that's something i'd never do!
i finally know where i belong.
i can't wait to jump into your arms.

i'm all in and ready to roll.
whatever you want; whatever you need;
i'm here to help you feel as alive as you make me!
this is forever - you and i - this is right!

There Is Love

you rest upon my soul; my heart is haunted by our desires.
you cast a long shadow of love over my life; when you leave your taste remains.
i go for days feasting upon your memory.
your touch reverberates against my flesh in my sleep.
the pleasure you bring me echos happiness to every part of me.
the fire you've created inside of me drives me home to you.

there is no doubt. there is no fear. there is sweetness. there is trust.

i put my faith in your love.
you make me stronger; our relationship is the glue that holds me together.
the passion we share is the ultimate reward.
your hands our magic upon my skin; i'm intoxicated by your scent.
i'm missing you right now! i reflect on our last kiss.
how it left me breathless. you've taken me to new heights.

there is no end. there is no insecurity. there is hope. there is us.

i look into the mirror and see a completed puzzle.
you were the piece i had given up on finding.
you're the perfect antidote to the poison of this world.
there's no man that has smitten me as much as you do.
we are dynamic lovers that belong together.
i finally found feelings that i don't want to hide from.

there is no escape. there is no pain. there is light. there is faith.

i hear other's doubts but they bounce right off.
i can't be anything to them because i am everything to you.
this love brings new dimensions to my world.
i feel full and satisfied. i can see to the end of forever in your arms.
i now know myself because you take the time to care.
you listen to me and reassure me you are near!

there is no lie. there is no pretense. there is you. there is love!

Seeds

dreams dangle from the strings of our needs.
no subtle introductions are necessary.
it's obvious my hopes are floating upon your whims.
take what is your and i wish the seeds you're planting inside of me take hold!

i grow attached to your touch.
the nuances of your kisses leave me trembling for more.
whenever my heart gets on the edge of falling in love with you,
my mind chants we are two adults having fun again and again.
i don't know if i jump if i could survive it when you leave.

i'm a pessimist with an optimistic heart.
you're my red candle and i'm yours with no doubts.
when you're near me i feel alive.
bring your seeds of desire to me and i will receive you every time!

the sound of your voice is intoxicating.
you love my greed and i love your ambition.
we're a hell of a pair spinning faster then bent air.
give me a piece of you that will never leave.
one seed is all i need;
then every tomorrow you will be with me!

you've worked your way under my skin.
i revel in the existence of you.
each new day brings more ecstasy.
the nights i only hold you in my dreams.
this puzzle is incomplete.
i'm empty with the pain.
i ache for you to fill me up with the seeds of your needs.

you surprise me with unexpected visits.
i run to you like i've been lost and now you've found me at last.
if this is a honeymoon phase i hope it never passes.
now i realize i can't stop this.
i crave your seed like a narcotic!

in my past there are booby traps.
bad decisions and mistakes riddle the stories i keep.
i can't explain why i think i've changed.
your light draws me into you.
the taste of you lingers on my tongue and mind.
i need your seed to complete me!

Wild

i can't stop thinking about the taste of your kiss,
your hands on my hips,
the heat of your body pressed against mine,
and your scent driving me wild!

you're intoxicating,
absolutely fascinating,
i love your smile, your hazel eyes and laugh.
your touch is driving me wild!

every text you tease me higher,
anticipation drawn out,
you make every moment we have count,
until we come together.
then you make me go wild!

you whisper you want me.
i feel how much you need me.
my head's spinning,
i hold my breath,
because you're driving me wild!

i can't get enough.
i can't believe it's only been a month!
i'm so drunk on you!
i'm high on your junk!
man you're making me go wild!

Misery's Bitch

did you find that rabbit hole where you were hoping to find your soul?
i fell into an invisible man.
he missed what he never did understand.
he's fed, fat and happy, but i'm plotting the perfect moment for my revenge.
the cold air nuzzles my neck and chokes on my cigarette.
i'm riding his hot air to the clouds and sliding to hell on his icy stare.
there's loves embrace and fear's kisses all jumbled up inside my memories of him.

do you keep her next to your shiny new car like a trophy that says you're a star?
she thinks you're in love with her, but we both know that's not true.
loneliness stalks you with every lie you utter to her.
she's not going to buy your delay tactics forever.
she's the kind of woman that marries;
and your the kind of man that worries she wants to marry you.
i'm chasing down karma and pointing it to your door.
stack the deck anyway you want.
the truth has a way of coming out.
i can wait for your life to fall apart.
your hands were never there to hold mine when i needed it,
so mine won't be there for you when she leaves you.

did i set this up so i always lose everything?
maybe i'm hard wired to be misery's bitch, but i stopped lying.
you never broke character with me or her.
how long can you keep pretending to be the man she wants you to be?
no wonder you're always sleeping, all this acting must be exhausting!
i'd beat some sense into you if i thought you could feel.
i've had my breakdown; i wonder how long it'll be until yours comes around.
i dreamed about you lying in bed with me instead of her.
i don't know if it was a nightmare but it scared me.
you and i together won't ever be, because that would be pure misery!

Heat in a Moment

it's a dark night, stars and moon are out of sight.
our cooling bodies entangled in the sheets.
the distant worries begin to accumulate.
life is altered from how we've known it.
all in the transfer of our body heat in a moment.
the passion ripples inside our bodies but my heart is unmoved.

i waited years to touch and kiss you.
i wanted you for so long i had almost quit,
but events unfolded like a treasure map.
you were led to me and i embraced you.
i'm not one to think things through
and now that our heat in a moment is at an end...

it's quiet as we lay side by side staring up at the ceiling.
the house could be on burning down and we wouldn't move.
the magic spell of passion's heat in a moment has been broken.
we both are wondering where do we go from here!

this adventure wasn't as fulfilling as i had dreamnt.
i built this moment up in my fantasies and reality tore it down.
my attention span has been redirected and you haven't even left my bed.
as the night slowly turns into day, this heat in a moment fades away.

i'm running like i always do, until another man catches my eye.
i love having a new one to pursue.
the chase is the heat that builds slowly before it ignites me.
one day i'll stop and regret all the love i've let pass me by,
but now i have to tell you good bye.
there's this really good looking guy i want to try!

No More Hugs

akward glances meet nonchalant shrugs, it means no more hugs.
my thoughts linger on the marlboro taste of your kisses.
if i could paint the perfect picture of us i'd paint you nuzzling my breasts.
destitute and desperate, i bet the rest of my love on you.
life keeps showing me there's no such thing as a sure bet,
but my heart refused to believe and we fell for your charms still.

i see the trajectory of your wants like a bullet from a gun.
you ripped through me and continued on with your fun.
there never was any talk of love, just chemical infused suggestions.
if pain feels this good then hurt me some more.
i'm a glutton for you punishments and adore being your whore.

pluck away on my heartstrings, i can't feel their pull anymore.
i'd slash your big hoss tires i could see your fire once more.
the only way i vibrate is when you shake me to my core.
all of this has become an anti-thesis of a bore.

the myopic lullabye of my obsession plays on in my head.
i hum along to your memory as i masterbate myself to sleep.
my flesh and blood has trapped our sin between my ears.
my pride never existed when you were by my side,
but i'd die a thousand times just to taste your cum one more time.

epic love stories like romeo and juliet can't be wrong.
love is the truest when everyone else thinks it doesn't belong.
the poison is the lust that makes the rest of our lives lose its luster.
we shift into overdrive to capture the thrill of life.
only when you and i come together do we get back into the vibe.
my weakness is your touch, i need you to glow!

Here We Go

hearts, stars and butterflies entangle in the first crush;
the sudden rush of awareness between boy and girl.
that first catch of breath,
the speeding of their hearts.
the sudden urge to grab hold of another person
and press lips to lips;
not understanding fully the risk of heartache.
only feeling pure raw passion coarsing through your body,
like a lightening bolt that's jolted you from head to toe.
hold on,
hold on,
here we go...

Green-Eyed Monster

i wish i was the center of your universe.
our paths must have traversed for a purpose.
this can't be our swan song.
the hollow echo of our unfulfilled potential rings over & over in my ears!

your hazel eyes beckon me to kiss you.
our fluids have been swapped and made a glorious mess.
now it's akward, this sudden breakdown of talk.
let's focus on what we do best with our tongues and hands.
emotional connections can't be tested if they don't exist.

your world collided into my wan existence.
you can't walk away after you change everything.
i don't know what makes you tick,
but when we're together it just clicks.
lies are okay if it all ends up the way i want.
it's not the journey but the destination that matters in this fight.

i'm tempted to go super nova on your life, but i still want to hold you.
i'm conflicted between vengeance and desire.
if i could have both, true satisfaction would be mine.
i know you say mean things about me.
i hear you've been talking trash.
i thought you were better then that.

i've managed to keep my green-eyed monster locked away,
but the door's shaking and i can hear it roar.
i don't know how much longer it can be ignored.
this urge i have to reap what you've sown.
to kill every dream you have in your heart.

make your choices wisely.
choose your next words carefully.
because once this thing gets started i can't stop it;
the green-eyed monster in me will devour you and your world
and we will both get torn apart!

Swimming

what about me swims in your head?
my weakness is your kisses.
i see you and my heart does a flip.
this world spins faster then i can deal with.
i see clarity when i'm away from you,
but when you're near i'm blinded by you.
this triangle has become bermuda,
when you enter me the world disappears.
only 10% of your time has been mine.
who swims in your head when i'm not around?

what holds you to her?
my thoughts are curious about you two.
you tell me she bores you.
you feel smothered and like it's all falling apart with her.
you don't want to hurt her,
but you don't hesitate to stomp on my heart.
there's no love that can bind you,
yet two women are slaves to you.
i know it swells up both of your heads.
this is the ultimate power of the worst kind.
whose the one that will be your downfall?

Gone with the Sunrise

how many days will it take for these blues to go away?
when will my heart finally be whole again?
inside of my mind all i have is unanswered questions.
inside my heart there's unrequited love.
i'm searching for solutions to all the above.

he seduces me with his hazel eyes
and husky voiced phrases, like you're beautiful.
it's everything i wanted to hear,
but the doubts still call out, he's a liar.
they're all liars.
i need him to keep the pain at bay,
but he won't be here forever.
he's like all the others, gone with the sunrise.

when will i be loved for who i am?
what am i doing wrong with all these men?
why can't i sustain a relationship with them?
am i that broken?
my mind swirls and twirls over every failed attempt at happily ever after.
my heart is a blank open book.
i'm searching for resolutions to all the above.

he winks at me and grins while he kisses my neck.
charm and sweetness are dripping from his tongue.
he's handsome and smooth.
he says he's different, not to worry, he's sticking around.
i love the script he's reading from, but my fears are on high alert.
he's lying.
they'll say anything to get laid.
i only want him so i can spend one less night alone.
he won't be here forever.
he's like all the others, gone with the sunrise.

so'm i'm still asking questions that hurt.
i still want answers, but know they won't come easily.
change and i aren't well aquainted.
but i know true love doesn't happen on your own.
so i'll go through a million sunrises if that's what it takes to get it right!

Two

my lips shine and taste divine.
my eyes are luminous and grey.
my hands are soft and smell of cherry blossoms.
what more do you want from me?

my heart beats faster.
my body shivers.
my whole being quivers from your touch.
what more do you need me to do?

passion has been chemically enhanced.
all the props have been placed.
the sensual vibe fills the room.
the two of us and one big bed.
one plus one equals us two entwined as one.

your 5 o'clock shadow against my neck.
your lips lightly brushing mine.
your hands gliding up over my hips.
i can't get enough of you.

the hunger in your hazel eyes.
your tongue dancing with mine.
your body pressing into me.
i can't get enough of you.

passions satisfied with one big bang.
the heat begins to fade.
the candles have burned down.
silence and heavy breathing remain.
the phones are ringing.
reality is invading our world of two.

good bye.
good luck.
maybe we'll see each other next month, maybe not.

The Last Night

you rock my world with every touch.
i'm so lucky to be with you.
your smile takes my day from dark to light.
your love lifts me up.

there's nothing i wouldn't do with you.
the last night you took me up too high
and now i'm crashing so hard!
you wind me up but you never cool me down.

i never know when you'll come around.
my heart dances to the tune of your tongue.
your heat is spreading through me rapidly.
i need you to take me suddenly.
our physical contact borders on the violent,
but i can't stop you and you won't stop yourself.

Dear Scott

my computer screen is the only light in the room.
i watch as the gnats are drawn to its light.
i shoo them away, i'm in no mood to spill any blood today.
i got my sullen music playlist on and i'm wondering when i'll see...
of course, my pen runs out of ink mid thought,
but these thoughts of you i can't keep.

i'm looking at the date and all i see is bytes.
101111,
yes i want you
no i don't
yes
yes
yes
yes
dear scott, give me some more!!!

my life is coming to its apex.
i'm not going to get any better from here.
i crave what he won't give me.
i pissed away my chance and he's taunting me with that fact.
too bad woman.
i got myself another piece of ass and you can't compete with that.
yes i can.
no i can't
yes
yes
yes
yes
dear scott, give me some more!!!

i've lost my mind!
but i'm crazy so i do this all the time.
i hand him the keys and open up my legs.
i pace in front of my computer waiting for a message from him.
i hope he doesn't know how badly i want him,
but i know he knows i do.
this is so messed up!

it's the thrill of stolen seconds that shouldn't be mine.
the kisses are sweeter when they are forbidden.
the passion hotter when you can't stay.
every sensation is 10 times better when you only have a minute or two.
yes we can't stop.
no we can.
yes
yes
yes
yes
dear scott, give me some more!!!

i feel like a dirty whore, but i'm not getting paid or even laid.
i swear i've been such a good good girl.
there's only touching, rubbing, sucking, nibbling, and squeezing.
he has me playing with his matches.
i keep waiting for us both to catch on fire and burn.
yes i want you
no i don't
yes
yes
yes
yes
dear scott, it's time for you to give me some more!!!

The Risk

i've sunken down into the depths of despair
down here things aren't clear
i can hear you shouting my name
but you sound a million miles away

you can't carry my baggage anymore
i'm missing the fireworks that went off every time you walked through the door
we got comfortable with each other
that was when we got into trouble

i forgot how sweet you felt between the sheets
and you couldn't remember why you loved me
boredom seeped into the cracks inbetween us
the familiar became bittersweet
and we couldn't keep passion's fire burning in our hearts

finding someone new became all i knew
he couldn't be anything like you
you were the poison and i needed to find the anti-dote
these feeling of escape drove me into reckless escapades
i broke your heart for no reason
i stopped trying and you stopped caring
we broke down 1/2 way down the road

your touch is no longer mine
your kisses go to someone else
i didn't look at you anymore
i just saw right passed you
fog rolled into my thoughts

i saw greener grass on the other side of the fence
but when i got there the grass wasn't what i thought it'd be
i miss you, but i took that risk
no i'm paying the consequence
you're in love and it isn't with me

Finish It!

all the little houses look the same
all the little people in them are insane
i take my pain in short strides
just keep walking
just keep walking
until i kickstart my brain

never realized how hard it is
to bring him to the same page
he's wrapped up in her
i don't care if they call me a theif
i'm just a girl looking for some free love

all the little trees line up perfectly
all my lies are collapsing in on me
no one see past my smiles
just keep talking
just keep talking
until i kill the fear

never thought i'd get caught up in his web
he's smoother then his bald head
he's teasing me with his kisses
i wasn't the one who started it
i'm just the girl who knows how to finish it!

Unfulfilled Desires

my heart doesn't know it's been broken.
i've been abandoned faster then a sinking ship.
the emptiness of your lies make me a laughing stock.
the high of your touch blindsided me.
you yanked my chains and pulled my hair.
we breathed as one, lust upon lust.
i felt your desire press against my ass.

i couldn't wait to taste you again, then it just ended!
abbreviated, i was truncated.
you robbed me of a new level of trust.
the lowest of the low crashed lower then ever before.
your hickey has faded, but your imprint remains.

i can't wait for this to pass.
the brief moment in my kitchen corner is over.
i scrubbed the counter over and over.
you had a dilemma, but i gave up before it began.
i lied to you, because i saw how she looks at you.
i don't steal, but i still feel.

i can't wait until she finds out about you.
i can't stay away.
you're the bug zapper and i'm the bug stupid enough to fly into you.
i'm not enough, even though you set me on fire.
you just walk away and watch me burn.
your kisses tasted like heaven.
your passion ignited dead desires.
now i'm yearning for your enthusiastic tongue against my breasts again!

i'm not waiting for you to come around to me again.
i'm adding another mistake with your name to my list.
a pattern is emerging, i'm putting this fire out.
i can't turn you around, so i'll just peddle faster to get over this hump.
i deserve more then you can give to me.
i am always the one doing all the sacrificing.
i'm lying in bed tonight with only my unfulfilled desires to keep me warm.