Real

as i listen to the crickets' chirp, my enquiring mind wants to know more about you.
i am debating having all 7 of your sacred names inked into my flesh.
i want have you with me all the time.
the scriptures say you already are, but there's no pain, so it doesn't feel real!

as i watch the dog sleep at my feet, my heart is yearning to be closer to you.
you know my every thought, but i don't know that much about you.
i am ready to jump in with both feet and give you all i have.
i want to dedicate all of me to you.
there are so many places and faces claiming they are able to help me,
but there's no beacon beckoning me, so it doesn't look real!

as i sit in front of the computer checking in on work, my soul battles against logic for control.
i'm not worried, i know your truth will set me free.
scientist keep searching for the God particle to explain what they can't see.
every discovery they make brings us closer to our own extinction.
faith is required for your love, not mathmatical proof.
their numbers aren't adding up, none of it makes sense, so it doesn't sound real!

as i get down on my knees to pray, my whole being becomes in sync with you.
a calm settles over me. a feeling of contentment spreads through me.
i sense a presence holding me. i am comforted.
i can't explain it. i can barely find these words to describe it.
the world melts away and time stops.
i know you are with me, but just long enough, so you become real!

Teach Me

teach me to heal the wounds of fear.
bring me a healer to lead me back to righteous thoughts.
distractions tempted me into being unworthy.
i painted my life in the red of sin.
i built my own prison from selfish desires.
i am desperate to feel God's love again.

i will apply the golden rule to everything i say and do.
Jesus, I beg you for your forgiveness,
project onto me your light and grace
and i will serve for the rest of my days, amen.

my revelation to see soulful perfection
was brought to me while i was drowning in a sea of confusion.
i wasn't capable of seeing the truth.
my detour through many sins had my free will chained to several addictions.
i asked for a miracle.
i wanted to change my perception.
my atonement brought back to me an amazing peace and contentment.

i look forward to every new day.
i enjoy the opportunities to serve and pray.
i stand strong in the timelessness of God's love.
my nights of tears have disappeared along with my fears.
Jesus saved me and he teaches me how to help myself by helping others.

God's Work

the softness of the dog's fur when i pet her
the coldness of the morning breeze
the saddness of an acoustic guitar plays
the stillness of my self as i meditate
the beauty of the moment sinks in
days like today i appreciate being lonely

the warmth of the sun upon my face
the roughness of the patio concrete against my feet
the sweetness of a cherry coke on my tongue
the songs of the birds in the trees
the simplicity of life washes over me
days like today i admire God's work

the quiet of my mind
the focus of my thoughts
the joy of my heart
the smile i have right now on my face
the faith i am feeling
days like today i remember why i breathe

the sorrows of my mistakes ease
the passions of my heart are pleased
the confessions of my soul are addressed
the questions of my mind are answered
the miracle of contentment settles on me
days like today i am thankful to be alive