His Will

life is hard, but today that's alright.
i've kicked back on a chocolate sofa.
i'm enjoying life's simple comforts.
a gentle spirit has nested in my heart.
it's not perfect, but it's a start.

i'm delighted to be here.
it's a miracle to be born.
the way all the stars lined up.
how your mom and dad fell in love,
makes you believe in fate.

sadness robs us of God's warmth.
i've spent too many years in the darkness of despair.
i felt i had to be some impossible idea.
the perfect saint dressed in pure white,
but my white clothes all have mustard stains on them.
it dawned on me that i had to let go of perfect.

every day God's touch is within our view.
the blooming tiger lilies outside my back door.
the birds singing their beautiful songs.
my daughter watching reality tv.
all of it is evidence that God is here.

i thought i had to climb to the top of a mountain
or visit some exotic land to see God's hand,
but now i realize he is everywhere.

i am humbled.
i understand so little of his plan.
faith will have to guide me through.
i cannot see him, if i am not looking.
i cannot hear him, if i am not listening.
so today i sit still,
waiting, hoping, and praying to do his will.

God's Work

the softness of the dog's fur when i pet her
the coldness of the morning breeze
the saddness of an acoustic guitar plays
the stillness of my self as i meditate
the beauty of the moment sinks in
days like today i appreciate being lonely

the warmth of the sun upon my face
the roughness of the patio concrete against my feet
the sweetness of a cherry coke on my tongue
the songs of the birds in the trees
the simplicity of life washes over me
days like today i admire God's work

the quiet of my mind
the focus of my thoughts
the joy of my heart
the smile i have right now on my face
the faith i am feeling
days like today i remember why i breathe

the sorrows of my mistakes ease
the passions of my heart are pleased
the confessions of my soul are addressed
the questions of my mind are answered
the miracle of contentment settles on me
days like today i am thankful to be alive

Everyday Miracles

You belong to me is what you say
I say there’s no one else I want to be with
It’s that simple when were together
The world takes second place
When it’s you and I face to face
I can’t help but wonder what I did so right
To make you love me
To make you mine

Let’s look back inside the turning of the clock
To the moment we met
When it looked impossible to love another
As much as we do now
Let’s see the miracle
The everyday miracle of our love as it is today

You never thought you could make it
I never thought I would want to try
But here we are together
And I have never felt so complete
There’s no where else I’d rather be
And no one else I’d rather see
It’s beautiful and perfect
It’s so simple, this everyday miracle

Crossing Over

I’m crossing over to you. I’m crossing over to get through. You’ll never know what I’ve had to do to cross over to you. Years keep flying by. Everyday is just like the other. Time is slipping through my fingers. I’m losing you. I don’t know what to do. Fate’s a cruel prankster. I thought we had it made. But maybe we weren’t meant to be. I’m making one last attempt to show you what you mean to me.

Bridges get burned and heart’s get broken all the time. Our situation is nothing new, but I’m not giving up hope. I want to save us. I want to keep us in love. Show the world a happy couple can survive today. I want you to realize were made of stronger ties. Love binds us for all time. I’m rebuilding that bridge one brick at a time.

Tell me you still believe in miracles. Let me see that sparkle in your eye. Fires can rekindled. Our love is true. Let me convince you I’m for real. I’ll cross any barrier just to be with you.

Not Today

I sat with everyone else around your death bed today
I heard your struggled breathes
I watched your brief moments of consciousness
I heard my Daddy say that God didn’t answer any of his prayers

People say I’m one of those that believe in miracles, in hopes, and in dreams
But not today
Today all I smell on the air is death.
Today the sky is truly gray and a hard rain falls.
Today I am full of doubts.

I kissed your scabbed and bruised forehead that still bears the marks where they tried to cut the cancer out of you
In a year you went from a vibrant light to a dimmed shell of the woman I love.
I see the tears in my Daddy’s eyes as he struggles between falling apart and being strong.

People say I’m one of those that believe in miracles, in hopes, and in dreams
But not today.
Today all I see is her dying in a hospice bed.
Today all I see are the faces fighting back tears.
Today I can’t believe in anything.

God, I am losing faith in you.
I know all the prayers I prayed in your son’s name go unanswered.
Because if you’d heard me then she’d be better and cancer free
So right in this moment at my kitchen table I am heartbroken and
Too damn depressed to believe in anything.
Today it’s all mirrors, bibles, and lies.

So forgive me. Today I can’t pray. Not today. No, not today.
Because it hurts too much.
The power went out and all the lights went dark.
Today the darkness is all around us.
Today I’ve tucked away all my hopes and dreams.
Today there’s no point to believe.
Not today. No, not today. I have no faith today.