Every Screw

i'm gonna climb the highest mountain and catch a ride on a shooting star.
i'm going to ride it until it falls.
i'll take this high until i crash and burn.
up i go with no safety net,
no hopes or dreams to catch,
i'll never accept i can shine.

bring me a piece of the sun.
close out this darkness.
hold onto your criticims.
i don't need an activist.
i won't reject you if you'll let me go.

i lost it back there.
i keep climbing stairs to nowhere.
my heart is smoking a special blend of fears.

the devil told me God didn't want me,
but yesterday i saw an angel smiling at me.
somewhere between my destruction and my salvation is where i can find what i need.

buy me a teflon soul.
let my nervous system reboot.
i didn't need a preacher.
your opinions are freely given,
but cost me all i hold dear.

i'm dancing across our history.
i feel like newly fallen snow my dog just shit on.
you never could let me slide.
you got to tighten every screw in my mind.

i can't forget the seeds you plant.
i got my weed whacker in shot glasses.
i'll cure this afflication until it kills you in my reflections.

i say crazy things and i mean them.
i deal in quantum madness.
multiply me by my infinite sadness.
the blackhole i've swallowed is turning me into you.
God forbid if there are two!

The Day after Mania

my energy bubble has popped.
yesterday i couldn't be stopped.
today every happy thought i had got its knee caps whacked.
my sleep brought shifting dreams that were jacked.
i cannot escape the dark side of me.

my hyper balloon has deflated.
my joyous mood got concatenated.
my ipod is back to songs that are mellow.
the voices in my head are back in tune with the cello.
i cannot swim against the sad rip tide.

my optimistic glasses got sat on and broken.
too many words got spoken.
i asked for honesty.
now i feel like a travesty.
i am harboring my own criminal.

my whirling dervish has collapsed.
i've had a depressive relapse.
there are many people now dazed and confused.
they are no longer amused.
i've split myself in two!

my speeding mind has crashed.
the manic feelings have ben stashed.
i do enjoy my up days,
but when they pass i pay!
the cycle has bested my control again.