Bangs and a Broken Heart

i got bangs and a broken heart.
he tore my whole world apart.
i was chasing the shadow of the perfect man.
he was an illusion selling me my dreams and i paid him everything i had!

now i'm alone, older, and not wiser.
i'm thinking about what went wrong this time.
he isn't remorseful and i'm not ready to let go.
we struggle against each other's flaws.
i wanted all of him and he wanted nothing at all from me!

i had hope for the first time in awhile.
the sun can't shine on me forever.
i had fun until he took it all away.
i had him but i didn't guess he wouldn't stay.
why can't i find love that won't fade?

those silly girlhood forever fantasies got the better of me.
he preyed upon my vulnerabilities.
wishes were the fuel for his bonfire of lies.
he duped me and i let him.
i don't know if i can do this anymore.
i have to undo this damage or he'll win!

i'm retreating to nurse my wounds.
this heartache won't kill me but i'm spooked.
it's time to be less a romantic and more pragmatic.
my goals are clear and he's not meeting them.
if love could be logical then we'd be happier.
i'll take this seat at the head of an empty table
and my mind will move past what it always knew would never last!

Lead the Way

i'm taking your hand.
i'm letting you lead the way.
you're so sure of the path we are on.
i'm letting go of my doubts and fears.
i'm taking this leap of faith.
i'm hoping we land on solid ground unscathed.

perfection is just flaws you can live with.
love alters your vision.
i no longer see errors when i look at you.
i never want to come down from this high.
i'm flying through the air on this trapeze
with no safety net to catch me.

i'm spinning around on a dance floor.
you're leading the way.
your confidence eases my insecurities.
i can say i love you while looking you in the eyes.
i'm taking this as a good sign.
i pray for years of happiness to come.

affection is a choice you make to show
your love holds no hostages.
i no longer hesitate when you reach for me.
i never want this feeling to end.
i'm jumping from the airplane
with no parachute to break my fall.

i'm not hung up on uncertainties.
i'm letting you lead the way.
every day i wake up knowing you're the one.
i'm finally breaking away from my chains.
i know now you can't plan love out!

Flawed

I am merely human.
I am riddled with flaws.
Inside and out they leave their mark.
My nose is scarred.
My freckles unevenly placed.
The more I look in the mirror,
The more I see how flawed I am.

I am an emotional being.
I am a vortex of contradictory decisions.
I leave my mark everywhere.
I cry suddenly with no provacation.
I get angry, explode, then laugh it off 5 seconds later.
The more I explore my inner mind,
The more I find how flawed I am.

My flaws bring me down to the basic level of humility.
These flaws make up the whole of me.
Each little piece doesn't explain enough about me.
Without being flawed I wouldn't be me.
I hate my flaws.
I love my flaws.
My flaws are who I am.