Always Waiting

i'm always waiting.
i wait on the computer to load.
i wait for payday.
i wait in line after line every day.
now i'm waiting on you to change your mind.
a woman can lose her mind with all this wasted time!

you were all mine, but that was only a brief moment in time.
you moved on but i'm stuck.
i can't let go of your memory.
we dance around my thoughts; always happy; always together.
i'm always waiting around here for you to knock on my door once more.

i imagine running in to you at a store.
you look right through me like i was a stranger to you
and i stay frozen; i let you come and go as you pleased.
i was waiting for you to realize we were perfect for each other.
i wonder what you were waiting for?

i'm always waiting.
i wait for my ship to come in.
i wait for my broken heart to heal.
i wait day after day for you to change your mind.
i think i'm finally losing my mind!

other men come and go, but I can't fall for them.
i know how it feels to be on hold.
you marked me as yours and it's a mark that still holds.
your touch haunts my dreams.
if i could sleep forever you'd never leave me.
then my wait would be over!

i drink to forget.
i move to live.
every day feels like an eternity.
this pain is eating a hole through me.
my love is wrapped up into your memory.
i almost get by, but i almost no longer mind you're gone.
you became everything to me.
then you couldn't wait to take it all away from me.

i'm always waiting.
i wait on fate to intervene.
i wait for the world to change.
i wait for you to miss me.
i wait for a man that can make me forget you ever existed.
i'm wasting all my time for you to change your mind and love me once more!

The Risk

i've sunken down into the depths of despair
down here things aren't clear
i can hear you shouting my name
but you sound a million miles away

you can't carry my baggage anymore
i'm missing the fireworks that went off every time you walked through the door
we got comfortable with each other
that was when we got into trouble

i forgot how sweet you felt between the sheets
and you couldn't remember why you loved me
boredom seeped into the cracks inbetween us
the familiar became bittersweet
and we couldn't keep passion's fire burning in our hearts

finding someone new became all i knew
he couldn't be anything like you
you were the poison and i needed to find the anti-dote
these feeling of escape drove me into reckless escapades
i broke your heart for no reason
i stopped trying and you stopped caring
we broke down 1/2 way down the road

your touch is no longer mine
your kisses go to someone else
i didn't look at you anymore
i just saw right passed you
fog rolled into my thoughts

i saw greener grass on the other side of the fence
but when i got there the grass wasn't what i thought it'd be
i miss you, but i took that risk
no i'm paying the consequence
you're in love and it isn't with me