All I want

I can’t eat when you’re upset with me. You talk to me like I can’t feel you but I do. And it makes me so sad because your words drive home the fact you’ll never be mine I have myself every time I lean on you. I tell myself to let go, but I’m holding on. It’s self-destructive, I know, but I can’t stop. Loving you is all I want. You’re all I want. I have you memorized. Your lines deepen when I make you smile. I feel the warmth of your gaze upon my breasts. But the next day those eyes are cold and uncaring. I want to know what you want from me. What do you want me to do? I try to avoid the cliché’s. I bury myself in the work, it soothes me. I’m trapped within my thoughts. I’m hurt, but you’re playing victim. You say I expect too much and maybe I do. But it’s because I need you near me. I miss you holding me. When you push me away it causes me so much pain. When all I want is to love you. Why won’t you let me love you?