Thank You for it All.

i went to sit outside because i need the sun.
i got to thinking about what else i need.
i need the sun because i'm low on vitamin d.
i can't see this need, but it's in my blood,
like how i need Jesus' sacrifice to return to God.

i can't plead ignorance.
i can't deny his existence.
the years i wasted running away from the truth.
there's only one thing i have left to do,
accept my eternal destiny and be blessed.

i have been foolish.
i have been reckless.
my youth left scars far deeper then the ones you can see.
you took from me more then i thought i could bare,
but you blessed me more then i ever knew.
your spirit was there to comfort me in my darkest hour.
all you've ever shown me is love.

i can't turn away.
i can't be afraid.
i still have time to make amends.
there's only one thing i haven't done.
i get on my knees, bow my head
and say a prayer to thank you for it all!

for the good and the bad,
for all the angels you sent to help me along the way,
for your patience,
this life i have now i'd never change.
no matter how destructive i got to be,
you never gave up on me.
thank you God.
thank you for it all!

The Rules

i'm starting to wonder if i have a heart left to break.
i'm basking in the bliss of my ignorance.
i don't want to be your therapist.
i don't want to know your wife's name.
if you're cheating on her it's not about me.
i'm a symptom of your disease, not the root cause.

these are the rules to follow if you wish to proceed.
you don't talk about me.
no one needs the to know about me.
this never happened, i don't know you.
this is a one time limited offer.
we fuck, you leave.

we continue with our separate lives.
the sexual curiousity satisfied.
there's no need to create drama.
i don't want a committment from you.
you are already in one.
if we stick to the basics,
no problems should arise.
we fuck, you leave.

i don't care about the state of your marriage.
it may seem cold of me,
but i've learned the hard way how this plays out.
there's no use in loving a married man,
when he's not married to you.
i'm never enough of a reason for him to leave her.
if you agree to play by the rules then we can get to it.
let's fuck, so you can leave!

Exorcise Ignorance

i would burn a clown down on a cross.
some think i've lost my religon,
but i believe God's love isn't in a temple.
The law's of men super imposed on God
is an attempt to steal authority from God.
Integrity is up to each of us.
we have to have the courage to embrace God in our own houses.

I've fallen down because gravity exists.
Science isn't a myth.
we have to exorcise the evil of ignorance.
heaven is full of joy and laughter.
when dusk comes and the stars appear
it's like God's assurance he his near.
We are alive now so we must live.
Abandon the museum of archaic thoughts.
Light the world up with your own fireworks.

i'm not going to fret over fictitious count downs
or grovel to a fellow human to forgive my mistakes.
i will crash into the Holy Ghost
and talk to Jesus like he is my best friend.
I am not separate from God,
he is in my heart and I am in his.