Casey

your lies became your truth
evil and good became one
you could no longer tell right from wrong
your moral compass spins with no direction
i can understand that

honesty isn't in your vocabulary
all your friends are imaginary
your fantasy world is all you knew
you never cared for anyone but you
i have been there too

the lines were drawn in the sand
no one knows what happened
you aren't the type to give answers
you zig and zag to avoid reality
it is fear that drives you

you forgot about her
you buried her underneath a carefree exterior
she will haunt your dreams
one day you'll have to face her and God
i expect you will cry then too

karma will catch up to you
babies are the purest of souls
all the bad decisions will be judged
God sees through all lies
will you do good now
and will it be enough to pay what is due

Soul for Sale

what exists outside of me means nothing.
it's what i hold onto inside of me
that brings meaning to my life.
money and possessions are pointless,
only God's love can bring me happiness.

i cannot buy a new soul on sale.
i cannot auction my heart on ebay.
if i turn myself toward the light,
the darkness will no longer surround me.
it's up to me to choose the good.
no one else can make the choice for me.

we each have a journey on this earth.
the path is a straight line,
but there are many temptations along the way.
my own journey to God is unique.
no one walks to the same beat in their head.
i seek to understand beyond what my senses can comprehend.
I physically cannot capture what I crave.

the sun lights up this page i'm writing on.
i feel courage pouring into me.
i sense a new boldness taking hold of me.
i cannot love what i cannot keep.
i read God's word like a starved lion.
i feast upon the spirit of his sacrificed lamb.

my depression is just me being homesick.
i was missing God and his spirit.
i couldn't tell good from evil.
i had gotten lost on my way home
and my life reflected this.

i've been struggling to see what was right in front of me.
the light got flipped on, and suddenly,
the answers were given to me.
you are what you read.
you are what you hear.
you are what you say.
you are what you do.
my perceptions were turned away from the Lord.
i am filled with joy to be back on track.
Amen!!!

Morning Glory

I wake up with the sun.
I look out my window and I see a lone morning glory.
We are both alone, but a morning glory has never loved in vain like me.
I pursue this thought born of silence hoping to find peace.

I asked a wise old man to teach me happiness.
He said to me, "Listening to God's instruction and use the knowledge you have, for one is silver and the other is gold."
My sorrow leaves me with a broken spirit.
I will surrender to this wisdom and renew my committment to seek truth.

There is substance in good.
I fell into evil by playing dumb.
I ignored what was right.
My arrogance in my own existence prevented me from loving myself.
A gracious heart does not envy.
I had to seperate myself from my pride to cleanse my soul.

I now speak thoughts free of guile.
I show mercy to everyone.
My heart is clean again.
I departed from the material to embrace the spiritual.

I am learning more with each prayer.
I awoke this morning with the sun.
I walked outside and stroked the petals of that lone morning glory.
I felt the Holy Ghost calm my mind, as I whispered, now I am never alone.

Exorcise Ignorance

i would burn a clown down on a cross.
some think i've lost my religon,
but i believe God's love isn't in a temple.
The law's of men super imposed on God
is an attempt to steal authority from God.
Integrity is up to each of us.
we have to have the courage to embrace God in our own houses.

I've fallen down because gravity exists.
Science isn't a myth.
we have to exorcise the evil of ignorance.
heaven is full of joy and laughter.
when dusk comes and the stars appear
it's like God's assurance he his near.
We are alive now so we must live.
Abandon the museum of archaic thoughts.
Light the world up with your own fireworks.

i'm not going to fret over fictitious count downs
or grovel to a fellow human to forgive my mistakes.
i will crash into the Holy Ghost
and talk to Jesus like he is my best friend.
I am not separate from God,
he is in my heart and I am in his.

Okay

My heart stops when I think of you. All the times I’ve betrayed you in my mind build up inside. I’m ready to crash into the wall and destroy the love we’ve built together. I don’t know why I do things like this.

You’re confused by me as I am. I can’t help myself. I always betray myself. The guilt burns in my soul. It sours all I touch with the stench of failure. I can’t escape myself. I’m sick of doing this to me.

I tell myself all the time to be positive. But a negative thought always comes along. I’m always sorry when I do you harm. But you’re tired of my apologies and you’re ready to move on. I don’t blame you. I never do. It’s me that’s the root of all evil.

I tell myself it’ll be ok. Someday I’ll get it right. I’m not crazy, just lazy. And if I worked on it I could be a better person to be around but it always falls to the ground.

Self-fulfilling prophecies, pre-destined before I talked or walked doomed me to be alone. I tell myself how could God be wrong. I tell myself somewhere there’s someone who’ll get me.

I tell myself everyday I’m not in pain just to get through. I tell myself a lot of things, but it never takes. I never make the cut and I’m always behind. I tell myself someday I’ll be okay. Someday it’ll all be okay.