His Will

life is hard, but today that's alright.
i've kicked back on a chocolate sofa.
i'm enjoying life's simple comforts.
a gentle spirit has nested in my heart.
it's not perfect, but it's a start.

i'm delighted to be here.
it's a miracle to be born.
the way all the stars lined up.
how your mom and dad fell in love,
makes you believe in fate.

sadness robs us of God's warmth.
i've spent too many years in the darkness of despair.
i felt i had to be some impossible idea.
the perfect saint dressed in pure white,
but my white clothes all have mustard stains on them.
it dawned on me that i had to let go of perfect.

every day God's touch is within our view.
the blooming tiger lilies outside my back door.
the birds singing their beautiful songs.
my daughter watching reality tv.
all of it is evidence that God is here.

i thought i had to climb to the top of a mountain
or visit some exotic land to see God's hand,
but now i realize he is everywhere.

i am humbled.
i understand so little of his plan.
faith will have to guide me through.
i cannot see him, if i am not looking.
i cannot hear him, if i am not listening.
so today i sit still,
waiting, hoping, and praying to do his will.

Life is Simple

sweet sunshine pouring down on me
all the problems float away
there's no one here to rain on my parade
i'm inhaling the fragrant scents of nature's products.
this is a moment of bliss.

i'm not going to fight you anymore.
i'm letting go of your ghost today.
i said a prayer to forgive us both.
these memories are being packed away.
finally,, i feel like my old self again.

the birds are singing a joyful song.
all my worries have disappeared.
no on can steal my uplifted spirit.
i'm embracing every simple miracle i see.
this is a moment of victory.

i'm focused on righting my wrongs.
i'm enjoying life without guilt bring me down.
i feel a peace descend upon my soul.
these days of contentment are here to stay.
finally, i've overcome my own prison.

life is simple, people make it hard.

How Bad can Hell be?

you shook me to my epicenter.
as i rebuild myself from the ruins,
i worry about possible aftershocks.
you've been quiet for awhile,
but in the back of my mind,
there is a whisper, he'll be coming back around.
i don't think i can withstand another encounter with you.
i'm thinking it's time to change my number and move.

paranoia isn't pretty
and maybe it's more likely my pride
telling me you aren't done with me,
because you left so abruptly.
i have to steel myself against your charms.
i have another demon to slay.

i found out a secret.
it is killing me to keep it.
but it's not my story to tell.
and i'm afraid i'll cause damage
and i do adore this person so much.
they are good and warm and friendly.
all this work on becoming a better person is exhausting.

how bad can hell be if entry to heaven is so hard to attain?
i've broken at least 7 of the 10 commandments so far.
i commit 2 out of the 7 sins on a regular basis.
is it the little sins that add up that doom you?
or is it the real big ones just being done once that get you?
Is God an all or nothing type?
it hurts my head to linger on such matters.

i've got to balance myself again.
i fall so easily on the slightest whim.
i cut myself over and over again.
when is the lesson learned?
my whole life has been filled with trials and hardships.
i have to break my bad habits.
I can't love you ever again!