Stalled

stalled out in the fast lane
no where to go
no escape
i watch the crash happen
i see it all unfold
i can't stop it
the pain
the blood
the burning
capture every tear
store every smell
watch the aftermath
see everyone collapse
find the hope hiding behind the fear
lives forever altered
five minutes turns into an eternity
everyone disappears
dispersed to clear the road
until the next collision
wrap up the bloody clothes
put up a white cross on the side of the road
find a new love
wait for it to end
hold my breath
pray this one doesn't hurt
thank him for the lesson
leave your heart in the slow lane
look both ways
cross at your own risk
broken hearts stop traffic
stalled out in the fast lane

Iron Will

my iron will has rusted out
leaving me susceptible to your smarmy charms.
there's no coffin big enough to hold all my doubts,
but i'll bury myself under your false pretenses.

my escape must be flawless.
i've super glued my smile on my face.
the duct tape holds my heart in place.
i can't chase you when you aren't running.
i have to laugh at how i thought you were sincere.

my fallacy was assuming you knew how to tell the truth.
i'm exhausted from arguing with myself.
i don't have any self-esteem left to give you.
support for us is down to my left pinky finger and i'm ready to cut it off.

my ears are burning from the lies you say.
i've stuffed my heart with fat to kill it.
i'd rather die at my own hands then your demands.
misery is lonely that is why it craves company.

my cognitive distortion was my thinking you'd leave her.
magical thinking can't bring me satisfaction.
your animal magnetism blew me away.
i felt you inside of me so the emotions must be real.

my groundless accusations are gaining traction.
i was told you like dirt better then having sex with me.
you're crazy to think this hasn't become personal.
i don't want to jump to conclusions, but you leave me no where else to go.

my discretion is growing from a whisper to a shout.
the lies must stop before they take over.
i disappear behind the cold wind of winter.
for now i think i can keep a lid on myself,
but i can't tell you it's forever or just until tomorrow.

Fly Away

I wish I could fly away
Even if it's just for one day
Soar above the clouds
Gaze at the stars
I'd be free from these problems
that are dragging me down

fly, fly, fly away
just for one day
fly, fly, fly away
go out and play
forget your troubles and
fly, fly, fly away with me

i want to fly away
somwhere exotic
where i'm waited on
nothing is overlooked
i'll sit and watch the sunset
i'll drink nectar from the vines
i'll find some peace of mind

so let's fly away
just for one day
fly, fly, away with me.

Escape

every day is getting me down
the sun won't shine and the clouds are gray
i am drenched with pain
how am i going to smile when all it does is rain.
i picture a small peice of paradise
somewhere nice
i only want a day far away
some place where i can escape

it's not my fault
when i get down into a funk
i just fall
and then i hit bottom
i roll around a little
then eventually get up
but once in a while i want
to jump
and land on a beach
drink a cool drink and escape

life plays its tricks
on time and lines on your face
you always wonder if your
in the right place
and no one doesn't doubt
there's some where else
they'd rather be
there's a little escapee
in everyone
and especially me