Supermoon

i confess my love to you with anxious breath.
i wait for your response, breathlessly, for you to talk.
then you break the silence with i'm falling for you too.
happiness replaces my fear and i feel like i've taken flight.
frenzied kisses and hugs embrace our newly declared love.

there's technicalities everywhere.
there's baggage to be lifted out of the way,
but i'm willing to do the heavy lifting to keep you.
now i know you love me too! you love me too!

i knew from the first phone call you were different.
you want to disappear into us like i do.
we both show each other our insecurities.
we are exchanging our deepest secrets.
we fit together so perfectly, it's a little scary!

i spend all my seconds with you on my mind.
my body aches to feel you inside.
love has never felt so alive!
i'd do anything for just one kiss.
i feel possessive.
i want you to be mine until the end of time!

we're attempting to create a new life together.
you love to be intimate with me.
and i revel in every touch!
my body is ready for you at the sound of your name.
this love cannot be tamed.

tonight we'll make love outside under the supermoon on your kid's trampoline.
you'll fill me with your seed.
the two of us, naked, covered in the sweat of our love's labors.
we will make a memory that will last forever!

Wild

i can't stop thinking about the taste of your kiss,
your hands on my hips,
the heat of your body pressed against mine,
and your scent driving me wild!

you're intoxicating,
absolutely fascinating,
i love your smile, your hazel eyes and laugh.
your touch is driving me wild!

every text you tease me higher,
anticipation drawn out,
you make every moment we have count,
until we come together.
then you make me go wild!

you whisper you want me.
i feel how much you need me.
my head's spinning,
i hold my breath,
because you're driving me wild!

i can't get enough.
i can't believe it's only been a month!
i'm so drunk on you!
i'm high on your junk!
man you're making me go wild!

Iron Will

my iron will has rusted out
leaving me susceptible to your smarmy charms.
there's no coffin big enough to hold all my doubts,
but i'll bury myself under your false pretenses.

my escape must be flawless.
i've super glued my smile on my face.
the duct tape holds my heart in place.
i can't chase you when you aren't running.
i have to laugh at how i thought you were sincere.

my fallacy was assuming you knew how to tell the truth.
i'm exhausted from arguing with myself.
i don't have any self-esteem left to give you.
support for us is down to my left pinky finger and i'm ready to cut it off.

my ears are burning from the lies you say.
i've stuffed my heart with fat to kill it.
i'd rather die at my own hands then your demands.
misery is lonely that is why it craves company.

my cognitive distortion was my thinking you'd leave her.
magical thinking can't bring me satisfaction.
your animal magnetism blew me away.
i felt you inside of me so the emotions must be real.

my groundless accusations are gaining traction.
i was told you like dirt better then having sex with me.
you're crazy to think this hasn't become personal.
i don't want to jump to conclusions, but you leave me no where else to go.

my discretion is growing from a whisper to a shout.
the lies must stop before they take over.
i disappear behind the cold wind of winter.
for now i think i can keep a lid on myself,
but i can't tell you it's forever or just until tomorrow.

Time Bomb

don't charge me admission to my own execution.
the hang man's rope calls out to me.
all these hopes that died on my tongue leave me crushed by their gravity.
the peace lily is dying; the war within is still raging.
someday i wanted to change, but not today!

you were the bigger man and that makes me sad.
don't judge me by your own moral standards.
the ten commandments are more like guidelines i ignore all the time.
i envy. i covet. i lust. i fornicate. i lie. i steal. i cheat.
i don't ask for respect because i never give it.
there's no honor inside this broken down whore i've become.

the most i get takes all i got.
don't think you know what i'm going to do next.
i don't know where i'm going or what i'm doing.
i saw you were back here last night smoking.
you didn't even bother to say hi.
the words you gave me were to pacify.
we're both afraid i'm going to lose my mind.

my insides are malfunctioning.
don't believe it's guilt because i'm falling apart.
it's just my broken heart flooding my system with those tears you wouldn't let me cry.
the fears have overtaken all my reason.
your voice had lulled me into submission.
we aren't friend but you like to pretend we are.
your influence over me is fading at last.
one day you'll piss me off and that will set me off, but not today!
i'm a ticking time bomb with a broken clock!

Heat in a Moment

it's a dark night, stars and moon are out of sight.
our cooling bodies entangled in the sheets.
the distant worries begin to accumulate.
life is altered from how we've known it.
all in the transfer of our body heat in a moment.
the passion ripples inside our bodies but my heart is unmoved.

i waited years to touch and kiss you.
i wanted you for so long i had almost quit,
but events unfolded like a treasure map.
you were led to me and i embraced you.
i'm not one to think things through
and now that our heat in a moment is at an end...

it's quiet as we lay side by side staring up at the ceiling.
the house could be on burning down and we wouldn't move.
the magic spell of passion's heat in a moment has been broken.
we both are wondering where do we go from here!

this adventure wasn't as fulfilling as i had dreamnt.
i built this moment up in my fantasies and reality tore it down.
my attention span has been redirected and you haven't even left my bed.
as the night slowly turns into day, this heat in a moment fades away.

i'm running like i always do, until another man catches my eye.
i love having a new one to pursue.
the chase is the heat that builds slowly before it ignites me.
one day i'll stop and regret all the love i've let pass me by,
but now i have to tell you good bye.
there's this really good looking guy i want to try!

No More Hugs

akward glances meet nonchalant shrugs, it means no more hugs.
my thoughts linger on the marlboro taste of your kisses.
if i could paint the perfect picture of us i'd paint you nuzzling my breasts.
destitute and desperate, i bet the rest of my love on you.
life keeps showing me there's no such thing as a sure bet,
but my heart refused to believe and we fell for your charms still.

i see the trajectory of your wants like a bullet from a gun.
you ripped through me and continued on with your fun.
there never was any talk of love, just chemical infused suggestions.
if pain feels this good then hurt me some more.
i'm a glutton for you punishments and adore being your whore.

pluck away on my heartstrings, i can't feel their pull anymore.
i'd slash your big hoss tires i could see your fire once more.
the only way i vibrate is when you shake me to my core.
all of this has become an anti-thesis of a bore.

the myopic lullabye of my obsession plays on in my head.
i hum along to your memory as i masterbate myself to sleep.
my flesh and blood has trapped our sin between my ears.
my pride never existed when you were by my side,
but i'd die a thousand times just to taste your cum one more time.

epic love stories like romeo and juliet can't be wrong.
love is the truest when everyone else thinks it doesn't belong.
the poison is the lust that makes the rest of our lives lose its luster.
we shift into overdrive to capture the thrill of life.
only when you and i come together do we get back into the vibe.
my weakness is your touch, i need you to glow!

I'm Trying My Best

your death has me thinking.
all my wheels have been spinning.
i've been stuck in a giant mud pit of doubt.
my heart has no target to aim at.
i keep wishing on planets instead of shooting stars.
i long for the day you held my hand and led the way.

i'm looking at you, so peaceful and at rest.
you're surrounded by flowers and your family is near.
you were laid to rest in a silver casket on a sunny day.
you are next to grandpa in tennessee.
please tell God i'm trying my best down here.

this life is short and riddled with mistakes.
my decisions play out like an off off broadway play.
i go through all the mementos you kept.
you tucked away every scrap of every little accomplishment,
yet there's seldom a mention of my name.
it's blatent to me now i never achieved anything.

i'm the grandchild you prayed for the most.
i'm sorry i couldn't hear the whisper of the holy ghost.
i have become a laundry list of uncompleted tasks.
right now i'm into my deepest mess yet.

he's got me in the corner between lust and regret.
i know it's wrong how he hurts me inside and out,
but part of me doesn't want the pain to stop.
your death has me asking myself hard questions.
there's so much i'd have to give up to be more like you.

i have to rile myself up against my own ways
and i don't know if i love myself enough to do it.
i deserve more then the brief minutes he gives me.
i'm afraid to lose him because he makes me feel.
without him i am numb, but i hate being under his thumb.

Quietly I Watch You

quietly i watch you talk to me
the way your mouth moves amazes me
the smell of your cologne envelopes me
you think i'm listening
but i'm lost in your essence
your mere presence dazzles me

quietly i watch you eat
the way you suck on your lemon from your tea entrances me
the meat you chew so vigorously reminds me of your passion
you catch me looking at you
so you wink at me and mutter yum good
your whimsy makes me want to dance for you

quietly i watch you sleep
the way you mumble and smile amuses me
the heat off your body arouses me
you roll over and spoon me
i nuzzle in deeper i can't get enough of you
your manhood pressed against me takes my breath away

quietly i watch you walk
the way you swagger makes me want to grab your ass
the confidence you project makes me swoon
you look over your shoulder and say, like what you see,
i laugh and say every damn day babe!
your the only man i want to keep

quietly i watch you laugh
the way you embrace life entertains me
the playful demeanor you have captivates me
you pick me up and twirl me around
we both end up on the ground
your the one for me!

Two

my lips shine and taste divine.
my eyes are luminous and grey.
my hands are soft and smell of cherry blossoms.
what more do you want from me?

my heart beats faster.
my body shivers.
my whole being quivers from your touch.
what more do you need me to do?

passion has been chemically enhanced.
all the props have been placed.
the sensual vibe fills the room.
the two of us and one big bed.
one plus one equals us two entwined as one.

your 5 o'clock shadow against my neck.
your lips lightly brushing mine.
your hands gliding up over my hips.
i can't get enough of you.

the hunger in your hazel eyes.
your tongue dancing with mine.
your body pressing into me.
i can't get enough of you.

passions satisfied with one big bang.
the heat begins to fade.
the candles have burned down.
silence and heavy breathing remain.
the phones are ringing.
reality is invading our world of two.

good bye.
good luck.
maybe we'll see each other next month, maybe not.

The Last Night

you rock my world with every touch.
i'm so lucky to be with you.
your smile takes my day from dark to light.
your love lifts me up.

there's nothing i wouldn't do with you.
the last night you took me up too high
and now i'm crashing so hard!
you wind me up but you never cool me down.

i never know when you'll come around.
my heart dances to the tune of your tongue.
your heat is spreading through me rapidly.
i need you to take me suddenly.
our physical contact borders on the violent,
but i can't stop you and you won't stop yourself.

Just a Glimpse

just a glimpse of you puts a silly smile on my face.
just one look from you and i melt.
you have the impact of 9.0 earthquake on my heart.
i can't stop wanting you; you've become a part of me!

just a glimps of you today sent my head spinning.
just one wave and my mood soared.
your mere presence shakes me to my core.
i need you like no other man before.

just a glimpse of your ass makes me wet.
just one touch from you and i surrender it all.
you're the exception to my one rule.
i can't tell you no, it's like the word no longer exists with you around.

just a glimpse of your hands has me wanting them all over me.
just one smile from you rocks my whole world.
you make all my bad thoughts disappear.
i want my world to revolve around you.

just a glimpse of you sends me into ecstasy.
just the hope you'll love me too lights my fire.
you know i've fallen hopelessly in love with you.
i can't wait until i catch another glimpse of you!

Disaster Ahead

i can still taste you at the back of my throat
every time i swallow your saltiness is on my tongue
i lick my lips automatically to savor your flavor
there's something about you that has me hooked

i think these love bites on my neck are going to bruise
we're not passed the oral stage in the play
but each production brings my house down

i know there's no happily ever after with you
my libido doesn't care if you marry me
i'm like a horny teenage boy these days
i just want to get laid every day, all day long

i'm sexually charged out to the max
and your touch sends me into full climax
all the warning signs are here
watch out woman, there's only disaster ahead,
but i keep letting you do what you you want to do to me!

A Little Rumor

a little rumor about you and me is going around
i swear i only said three words, he's my type.
the buzz has begun, where do these things come from?
you've got my curiousity in overdrive.
i fear the talk will drive you away,
but it's not my fault!

my words have been taken out of context.
i said i think you're cute,
but i never said anything that would hurt.
you're backing up and changing course.
my emotions can't run their course.
you are under the influence of other people's opinions.

a little rumor has gotten it all wrong.
i want you badly but you don't know what to do.
you're hovering over me like a lone rain cloud.
my desires are getting the best of me.
i'll make a promise to you to never speak of you again.
will that settle your skittish nerves?
i'm not the one that is cheating on someone.
tell me please, what the hell do you want from me?

Unfulfilled Desires

my heart doesn't know it's been broken.
i've been abandoned faster then a sinking ship.
the emptiness of your lies make me a laughing stock.
the high of your touch blindsided me.
you yanked my chains and pulled my hair.
we breathed as one, lust upon lust.
i felt your desire press against my ass.

i couldn't wait to taste you again, then it just ended!
abbreviated, i was truncated.
you robbed me of a new level of trust.
the lowest of the low crashed lower then ever before.
your hickey has faded, but your imprint remains.

i can't wait for this to pass.
the brief moment in my kitchen corner is over.
i scrubbed the counter over and over.
you had a dilemma, but i gave up before it began.
i lied to you, because i saw how she looks at you.
i don't steal, but i still feel.

i can't wait until she finds out about you.
i can't stay away.
you're the bug zapper and i'm the bug stupid enough to fly into you.
i'm not enough, even though you set me on fire.
you just walk away and watch me burn.
your kisses tasted like heaven.
your passion ignited dead desires.
now i'm yearning for your enthusiastic tongue against my breasts again!

i'm not waiting for you to come around to me again.
i'm adding another mistake with your name to my list.
a pattern is emerging, i'm putting this fire out.
i can't turn you around, so i'll just peddle faster to get over this hump.
i deserve more then you can give to me.
i am always the one doing all the sacrificing.
i'm lying in bed tonight with only my unfulfilled desires to keep me warm.

Given Up the Ghost

i am feeling every fat cell tonight
i am weighed down by my heavy sighs
the only control i have is over myself
and i have failed at executing that
you toyed with my hormones
i was on a righteous track
but now i have fallen into the sinner's rack.

Jesus sat with the ones that needed saved
so right now he should be beside me
because i need him now more then ever
my bible offers me no respite
i still dream of fucking you every night

i am feeling every mile i have ever walked
my pain reminds me i am real
i have fallen all over the place
and i do not know if i can get back up again
i had fire burning through my veins
and i burst into lust filled flames

God i know i have disappointed you
right now i am a dirty minded whore
because i want him more then i want you
the scriptures tell me to flee
but i can not think when he is near me

i am feeling every regret i have ever had
my poor decisions drain me
the bottle brings a complete blackout
but i can not stay unconscious forever
eventually, i will have to take responsibility

the Holy Ghost has no love left to give me
i have no fight in me
i want to be wrong
but there is no more doubt
i have given up the Ghost for a man!

Galaxy

world shifting, axis tilting, stars spinning
heart exploding, ears rushing, pulse racing
falling, i'm falling

sun imploding, planets colliding, galaxy expanding
giggling rapidly, tongue tied, stomach clenched
falling, i'm falling

i dance in my mind with you
in the middle of the living room floor
the bottom of the stairs
in the master closet
on my bed
it's everywhere we've been
i am falling deeper then i ought to
i've caught a tiger by his tail
and i want to yell!

moon eclipsing, asteroids passing, blackholes sucking
nerves rattled, palms sweating, lips licking
falling, i'm falling

clouds moving, rain pouring, skies darkening
thoughts doubting, stupid grinning, hyper driving
falling, i'm falling

i lie against you flesh against flesh in my mind
your smile blinds me
your warmth melts me
your voice entices me
on my bed
it's every part of you i want to touch
i'm falling faster then i want
you've got my attention,
and my entire galaxy is revolving around you!

Disarmed

i want what is bad for me.
on the sabbath day, all i can think about is you.
life threw me a curve ball on a tuesday.

i let a fox into my hen house.
i invited him in and showed him around.
his advances caught me off guard,
but now pandora's box has been opened.
dag nab it, my sexual curiosity has be reawakened!!!

my physical condition is improving.
my breathing is easing.
but men can see me now.
i fear being found attractive.
why do i have to be thinner to be healthy?
my buffer of fat is disappearing.
i'll now have learn how to interact with him.

i like my walks and i'm a bundle of energy.
the house is neat and organzied.
i feel better about myself,
but i worry about falling for a smooth one like you.
i can do it this time.
i don't know what has changed,
but i haven't panicked like before.

my life has improved.
i'm learning to love what God has given me.
i will figure out this new body.
my renewed vow of chasity will hold out.
i was temporarily disarmed by his charms,
but a voice told me to flee fornication.
thank you God, for helping me out of a sticky situation!

The Symptoms

i am afraid you will leave and you haven't arrived yet.
i blame myself for my own mind games.
if i lie and say it's what i like,
will you come back into my personal gravity?
my feelings are tied up within myself.
i can be your north pole if you'd be my south.

i am paying more attention now.
i'm boosting my sexual intensity,
but you refuse to react to me.
i find the effort refreshing.
i hate when it comes easy,
so i keep building up the fantasy.
i hope you can deliver a 1/4 of what i'm dreaming.

you are my current obsession.
i let the last one go for you.
he was a hopeless attempt.
you show promise to bring me multiple orgasms.
it's hard to keep me satisfied.
i'd like to give you another opportunity to try.

you have no idea how you've sent my world spinning.
i had gotten comfortable with my lonely routine.
your little smirk and fleeting touches haunt my dreams.
i'm looking forward to riding you,
so i'll keep prancing around for you.
because i got the disease of lust bad,
and you're the only relief for these symptoms!

Undivided Affections

"Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth:
for thy love is better then wine." SS 1:2

my mind hangs on the magic of your touch.
these thoughts of mine are backsliding to the sweet sins of flesh.
vanity is unholy and i've underestimated your pull.
there's a fire raging in my heart and fear dancing on my nerves.
i have to find strength to reject this evil.

my madness spreads through to my soul.
i have lost the wisdom of the truth.
my devotion has become a lesson in fragility and sorrow.
the advesary is gifted in disguising lust as love.
God is jealous and demands my undivided affections.
i know where my duty lies.

the afterlife will be bleak if i die steeped in lies.
i am sane right now.
i keep this moment as a souvenir.
i must be blunt with myself.
the way i desire him is the signature of the devil himself.
these temporary obsessions of mine are destructive.
more proof to me that my journey toward heaven will be long and arduous.

"For God shall bring every work into judgement, with every secret thing,
whether it be good, or whether it be evil." ECC 12:14

every thought that has ever been in my head;
every desire that has ever twisted in my heart;
is under review, so i have to learn to control myself more.
i have to pray harder then ever before to resist these temptations.
God deserves my undivided affections.

Path to Heaven

i knew my freedom wasn't perfect.
i was slipping into temporal desires that led nowhere.
i thought once your innocence was lost you could never be clean again.
i would follow the teachings of Jesus for a little while,
but i'd run low on spiritual fuel and abandon ship.

i didn't understand the directions.
i let lust and doubt interrupt my journey.
my efforts would easily be derailed by sin disguised as good.
i'd fall for all the pretty boys and their satin words.
i thought i was in love, but i was just in lust.

my faith would be tested again and again.
i'd cry for hours desperate for a sign that i was on the right track.
i was little in faith and terrified of the future.
i decided to focus on now and pray.
the clouds parted and the sunshine was brilliant.
i was blessed with the comfort of the Holy Ghost.

i realized the trappings of this life are nothing.
i could not depend on others to lead my way.
only i can determine the path i take to heaven.
i don't have to be a visionary to see how beautiful God made everything.
i no longer fear the fury of damnation.
this is true freedom, like God, it is perfect.