The Love They Got

you won't find my heart in the high priced aisle's;
it's stuck in the back, marked down, got to go,
almost free & it don't even got to be to a good home.
i watch the people pass me by
and i wonder if i'm too tattered and torn
to ever get the love they got.

i went fishing for a committment
using a baby as the bait.
my uterus let me down.
now i don't have a shot in hell of keeping
either man from running away from me as fast as they can.

you won't see my soul singing hymns up in heaven.
it'll be dancing in hell fire, almost burnt beyond recognition,
numb to the pain, and smoldering with sin.
i watch the righteous on the tv
and i know i'm too broken and forlorn
to ever get God's love like they got.

i filled my head up with happy endings.
i was giving my love away like it didn't hurt me in any way.
my hopes of someone falling in love with me
has every one laughing at me behind my back.
you won't see me out begging.
the love they got i don't want it anymore!

Morning Glory

I wake up with the sun.
I look out my window and I see a lone morning glory.
We are both alone, but a morning glory has never loved in vain like me.
I pursue this thought born of silence hoping to find peace.

I asked a wise old man to teach me happiness.
He said to me, "Listening to God's instruction and use the knowledge you have, for one is silver and the other is gold."
My sorrow leaves me with a broken spirit.
I will surrender to this wisdom and renew my committment to seek truth.

There is substance in good.
I fell into evil by playing dumb.
I ignored what was right.
My arrogance in my own existence prevented me from loving myself.
A gracious heart does not envy.
I had to seperate myself from my pride to cleanse my soul.

I now speak thoughts free of guile.
I show mercy to everyone.
My heart is clean again.
I departed from the material to embrace the spiritual.

I am learning more with each prayer.
I awoke this morning with the sun.
I walked outside and stroked the petals of that lone morning glory.
I felt the Holy Ghost calm my mind, as I whispered, now I am never alone.

Every Bit of Me

the tone of your voice is slightly hypnotic.
that must be why i believe you
when you tell me to trust you.
i'd like to dance in the rain with you.
let the storm overcome us
and be soaking wet, drenched in the moment.
all the world revolving around our hearts' beating.

i don't live in reverse.
i love full speed ahead.
when i commit, i'm all in!
no retractions or substitutions.
i hand over every bit of me.
the good and the bad,
it's more then you've ever had.

the light sparkles in your bright eyes.
that must be why i think you only see me
when you enter a room.
i'd like to spend eternity with you.
let my life start now
and the past will evaporate.
the future is wide open.
all we've done before now is obsolete.

Expected

i don't want to hurt anymore.
i'm tired of being tired.
i built you up higher then you could reach.
i'm sorry i expected too much.
i expected you to care.
i expected you to love.
i expected way too much from you.

i don't want to argue with you.
you won't let me win the battle,
so i've stopped the war.
i'm sorry i expected too much.
i expected you to try.
i expected you to reach out.
i expected way too much from you.

i can't think of a solution.
this mess is too big to fix.
you'll have to carry your own baggage now.
i'm sorry i expected too much.
i expected you to open up.
i expected you to trust.
i expected way too much from you.

you tried to set the bar low,
but i pole vaulted over you,
and expected you to keep up the pace.
i know now i expected way too much.
i expected respect.
i expected a committment.
i was stupid to expect so much from you!