Silent

i don't know where to start
and i have no idea how to end it
this is wrong no matter how you spin it
the words come and go but none capture the moment
i'm silent

my ears heard you say it
i saw the expression on your face
you were serious and full of intentions
i'm not sure if they were good or bad
which direction you are heading is a mystery
you're waiting for my response
i'm silent

normally, i can fire off a quick quip
brush off your shots easily
dodge your bullets like a pro
whenever you try to get under my skin
i deflect you again and again
but this was unexpected
its not like you to cut so deep to hurt me
your cheshire like grin leaves me Silent

did you read a self help book
or join an online relationship forum
the other day you mentioned being at your wits end
i didn't pay attention to it
i never do when you say stupid things like that
i love you isn't that enough for you
now we are staring at each other
you're holding your breath now
we are now both Silent

i think you broke us
i don't know what to do or say
i let the Silence stay
i grab my coat
i go out the door
and i walk away

A You Free World

you're picking me apart again
my esteem isn't your concern
your love isn't something you want to give to me
losing you could be the best thing to ever happen to me
no more obnoxious curse filled rants
welcome to a new and improved you free world!

questions don't always need to be answered
the universe is full of unlimited possibilities
i need to explore other realms
time may run out on me, but i'll die if i stay where i'm at

the catalyst was your accusations
they outed my doubts into the light
unicorns aren't real and neither is your heart
i released my remaining feelings for you into the air
i already feel 200% better
God doesn't need to be bothered for moments like this
i expect you to never speak to me again

life is a bore when you remain neutral
obvioulsy, i am not taking your side
vex me if it makes you feel better
i'm excited to now be living in a you free world!

Mouth Full

isolation is salvation.
do i even need to speak today?
if you never say anything then no one can misunderstand you.

silence is golden and loose lips sinks ships.
you hurt my feelings and don't even flinch.
i wish you never spoke to me.

your words strip my soul and rape my feeling over and over.
you call yourself brutally honest.
i think you like being mean.

i'm tired of being the brunt of your jokes.
i'm sick of getting cut on your barbs.
that tongue of yours gives me goosebumps when it licks my flesh,
but chills me to the bone when it's not.

i've been avoiding you.
i thought i had toughened up, but my skin still isn't thick enough.
your voice gets under it every time you talk.

i don't want to hear you talk to me anymore.
i guess i will have to find a way to keep your mouth full.
that way i can actually enjoy your company.

Bully

12:30 am the phone rang and the world went crazy.
i didn't say hello, i went right to what's wrong?
i've gotten this call before from dad, last time my mom had died, this time my neice is in icu!
i went from sound asleep to wide awake in one heart beat.
she's going to physically get better, but her mind is in a real bad place.

i've been depressed enough to try it.
i know exactly where she's at right now.
my heart is breaking with her pain.
i want to hold her tight and let her cry it all out.
that boy is a poison!
these are boo boo's i can't kiss away.
this precious child is being bullied to death by a boy that told her he'd love her until the day he died!
if i had my way that day would be today.

the teenage drama has gotten out of hand.
the new girlfriend travels in a pack of mean girls.
they're spreading lies, they tell her they are going to kill her.
the school did nothing, the 5 said they were innocent.
5 against 1 is not a fair fight.
my neice is a sweet and sensitive soul.
she hurts when she thinks you are mad at her.
she takes after my mom on that.
it's no way to live to put your happiness into other's hands.

it is time for her to heal.
hell is being raised at the school.
she will need to change and grow.
it's a hard way to learn to stand up for yourself.
God, help her, and help us to help her.
bring me the words to say to her.
send her the holy ghost to comfort her.
we will be here for her.
she can overcome this and be strong.
she will live through this!