Not Sad and Not Mad (Amen)

i am falling, helplessly, calling for an angel to catch me.
i was wondering where i was going when you stopped to talk to me.
i was feeling lower then low the day we met through pure happenstance.

and

i'm not sad and i'm not mad.
these things will pass.
i won't worry about your past.
i've put these issues into the proper hands.
now i've just got to say amen, amen, amen.

i'm searching, endlessly reaching out for you to take my hand.
i am seeking to understand where you are coming from.
you are feeling lost but i swear to you my heart remains true to you.

and

you're not mad and you're not sad.
we both know these things will pass.
we can't waste our time worrying about the past.
we've put this in the proper hands.
now say it with me, amen, amen, amen.

we're hoping, strongly believing, God will see us through.
together we are blazing a brand new trail.
we build our future as one renewed in faith.
we are feeling optimistic and joyful because we know it's simple.

and

we don't get sad and we don't get mad.
we turn to the Lord to set us free.
we listen to that still small voice to guide us where we need to be.
you can never go wrong if you put your problems in God's hands.
all you to do is lift up your troubles and say amen, amen, amen.

Only God Knows

i'm trying to stay positive.
it's hard when negativity hits me every day.
how many blows to my soul can i take?
only God knows. only God knows.

i try to be optimistic.
i got bad news today.
how many times can i be disappointed?
only God knows. only God knows.

i try to be helpful.
i always offer a helping hand.
how long can i withstand all the rejection?
only God knows. only God knows.

i get worn out.
my life seems endlessly tough.
when will my trials end?
only God knows. only God knows.

i dare not forsake my faith.
i can't always feel good.
how will i move forward?
only God knows my heart.
only God knows me.

Half Asleep

half asleep on a sunday morning,
killing time waiting for you.
i've spent up all of my patience.
the clock is the only thing changing here.
another minute i wish you were here,
but i won't be the one breaking down.
if you miss me as much as i miss you,
swallow your pride and call me.

you're so stubborn and stupid.
you would freeze to death
before you'd reach out to me.
i have some love put aside for you,
but it's not going to last forever.
let go of your self-control.
allow yourself to indulge,
while someone is here that wants you.

feelings are a stranger to you.
you accuse me of feeling too much,
but i'd rather be a live wire
then a dead circuit no one needs.
i've put alot of effort into loving you.
all i wanted was a chance,
but you never gave me that.
i am done with the games you play.
you never told me the rules anyway.
so i've got to move on now.

you got your righteous pride
and i've got a broken heart.
you think you're always right
and this time i think you're wrong.
no one could've loved you better,
but no matter what i do or say it's never enough.
i'm dropping my extra baggage
and picking up some optimism.

half asleep on a sunday afternoon,
realizing it's time to surrender.
i don't know what's to come,
but i know i won't be sharing it with you.
i have to build a future without you.

After The Test

relief floods through me.
i am free.
i am clear.
my future opens up and
only I can hold me back.

truth is clearer when death is nearer.
fear distorts your vision.
doubt filters your hearing.
my insecurities tied me down.
now reality has direct access to me.

i am building a new world.
hope is abundant.
optimism is my fuel.
my smile leads the way.
no obstacles can stop me now.

after the test i found new zest.
dancing is fun.
laughing is good.
my mood is through the roof.
my old friend misery got kicked to the door.
no negativity is allowed anymore.