You Save Me

i can't imagine my world without you.
in this craziness i've succumb to you're like a beacon of hope lighting my way home.
your laughter is sweet music to me.
your voice brings me out from my darkest thoughts.
you save me when others fail.

you are powerful.
you are beautiful.
you are perfection.
my heart belongs to you.
you're the key to healing me.
you save me.

when i want to lock myself away and ignore the world,
you push and pull me out of my shell.
you aren't scared of me when i go crazy.
you never give up on me.
how did you get this strong?
you save me all by yourself, i'm in awe!

you are wonderful.
you are brilliant.
you are funny.
my soul belongs to you.
you're the piece of me i was missing.
you save me!

when i'm afraid you are brave.
when i fall you pick me up.
i'm supposed to help but i don't.
you are my nurse and my jester.
my angel of mercy with a mischievous grin.
you are my only truth.
you save me even when i don't know i need saved.

you are amazing.
you are courageous.
you are fabulous.
my life belongs to you.
you're the one i was waiting for.
you save me!

Quietly I Watch You

quietly i watch you talk to me
the way your mouth moves amazes me
the smell of your cologne envelopes me
you think i'm listening
but i'm lost in your essence
your mere presence dazzles me

quietly i watch you eat
the way you suck on your lemon from your tea entrances me
the meat you chew so vigorously reminds me of your passion
you catch me looking at you
so you wink at me and mutter yum good
your whimsy makes me want to dance for you

quietly i watch you sleep
the way you mumble and smile amuses me
the heat off your body arouses me
you roll over and spoon me
i nuzzle in deeper i can't get enough of you
your manhood pressed against me takes my breath away

quietly i watch you walk
the way you swagger makes me want to grab your ass
the confidence you project makes me swoon
you look over your shoulder and say, like what you see,
i laugh and say every damn day babe!
your the only man i want to keep

quietly i watch you laugh
the way you embrace life entertains me
the playful demeanor you have captivates me
you pick me up and twirl me around
we both end up on the ground
your the one for me!

A Good Time

i had fun today,
me and my family.
there was laughter
and true happiness.
a good time was had by all!

as we rest quietly,
the images process rapidly.
joy and peace settles
upon our hearts.
we are tired and content.
our good time will be remembered by all!

memories have been created,
like capturing magic in a bottle.
the imprints of experience
leave these jovial marks.
i am zealously storing every second.
this good time might never be repeated,
but it will be held dear by all!

Scheduled Twinkies

i can't clear my brain long enough to have a thought.
pain envelopes everything i got.
i'd swallow a river of pills to drown my diseased bod.

my life is divided into the happy and the pain.
i spend more time on the dark side of my brain.
scattered to the wind on impulses whim,
i have no control when i'm without him.

i'm staring down the barrel of misery.
wondering when life will blow up in my hands.
one hour i'm up and then six i'm down.
i'm biding my time until i crash and burn.

i'm torching pieces of my soul as i go.
tearing into my reasons like fresh twinkies,
i devour what's left of my control.
i line up all my happy thoughts along the wall,
i execute them one by one until they're gone.

i wish i could block off my emotions,
like blocks of time on my calendar.
i could schedule my breakdowns inbetween meetings.
i'd pick Monday's to be perky.
Tuesday's I could be moody.
Wednesday could be neutral ground.
Thursday's I can space out a bit.
Friday I'd be down with it.
Saturday's I'd be the toast of the town.
And Sunday I'd wrap up and hide in my tears.

My mind is controlled by a remote I don't have access to.
so I go around surprising everyone.
even i get exasperated by how my mood turns on a dime.
i try to selectively remember the good times,
but the bad ones are on an infinite loop.

my pain and my fear eclipse what joy i come by.
pain and love hurt me the same.
one i can avoid and the other never leaves.
i wanted more, but i could settle for one day of predictabilty.

After The Test

relief floods through me.
i am free.
i am clear.
my future opens up and
only I can hold me back.

truth is clearer when death is nearer.
fear distorts your vision.
doubt filters your hearing.
my insecurities tied me down.
now reality has direct access to me.

i am building a new world.
hope is abundant.
optimism is my fuel.
my smile leads the way.
no obstacles can stop me now.

after the test i found new zest.
dancing is fun.
laughing is good.
my mood is through the roof.
my old friend misery got kicked to the door.
no negativity is allowed anymore.

Break Free

I'm sick of sitting around waiting for things to happen.
I'm too tired to go out and find some action.
Why don't they sell sin door to door?
I think they'd make a fortune, for sure.

I'm so down to earth, I'm sinking under it.
I'm so into staying home, I never leave it.
There's got to be a way to break free of this rut that I'm stuck in.
I just can't see my way out.
I'm dug in and pinned down.

I want to break free.
I want to be implusive.
I don't want to worry what tomorrow will bring.
I want to break free.
Ride upon a wave of fun.
Run around with no shoes on.
I want to break free from being me.

There are bills to pay and chores to do.
I got list so long I'll never get through.
I see disaster around every corner.
I want to lock the world out.
I want to shut down.

For every second I have fun,
There's 10 more minutes of work to be done.
I'm tied to the daily grind.
I married the dishpan last night.

There's got to be a way to break free from these weeds
and swing from the trees while
screaming out all of my frustrations.
I want to break free.
Ride upon a wave of fun.
Run around with no shoes on.
I want to break free from being me.