Lonesome Soul

the name calling has started, it's a sign the end has come.
you don't believe me and i don't trust you.
we sit in our separate houses to stew.
there's no mercy in a battle of bleeding hearts.
you're ripping my dreams out through my uterus.
my period has become a badge for all my failures.

the voices surrounding me mock my choices.
i sit behind a closed curtain waiting endlessly to be seen.
my hurting doesn't even matter to God.
my prayers are dying under the weight of my regrets.
i lost my grandmother yesterday.
my joy has been overcome by my pain.

i remember her devotion to God and family.
she seemed so fragile, but her spirit never would break.
i'm sucked up into a restless life.
i'm not content unless there's strife.
my mistakes get worse with every breath i take.
these burdens are burning me at the stake.

i'm certain i'll die a lonesome soul.
cold, destitute, barren, depressed, shattered and alone!

Quietly I Watch You

quietly i watch you talk to me
the way your mouth moves amazes me
the smell of your cologne envelopes me
you think i'm listening
but i'm lost in your essence
your mere presence dazzles me

quietly i watch you eat
the way you suck on your lemon from your tea entrances me
the meat you chew so vigorously reminds me of your passion
you catch me looking at you
so you wink at me and mutter yum good
your whimsy makes me want to dance for you

quietly i watch you sleep
the way you mumble and smile amuses me
the heat off your body arouses me
you roll over and spoon me
i nuzzle in deeper i can't get enough of you
your manhood pressed against me takes my breath away

quietly i watch you walk
the way you swagger makes me want to grab your ass
the confidence you project makes me swoon
you look over your shoulder and say, like what you see,
i laugh and say every damn day babe!
your the only man i want to keep

quietly i watch you laugh
the way you embrace life entertains me
the playful demeanor you have captivates me
you pick me up and twirl me around
we both end up on the ground
your the one for me!

Indulgence

devotion can't capture how i feel about you
i elevate my heart to heaven
when you call out to me
this feeling spins me around
faster then the speed of light
i'd give up every sin to be your one indulgence

obsession is you dominating my every thought
i create a world just for us
when you say my name
these moments are just the prelude
our symphony will play across the universe
the fat lady will never sing on our love

passion for your every flaw
i know you inside and out
when you breathe i know your next thought
this bond is absolute
our connection runs down to a cellular level
i entwine my very essence with yours

possessions do not matter to us
objects are not what we need to be complete
when we come together we are in sync
the magic we make is a mystery to others
i disappear when you are near
and abracadabra, two become one forever

Just You and Just Me, Alone

lay with me, play with me, chase me around the old oak tree.
we'll fall to the ground and pretend no one is around.
it'll be just you and just me, alone.
no pretenses and disguises, just you and me, undivided.

we are in love and happy to be you and me.
stay with me, run away with me.
we'll fly to the beach and walk in the sand.
we can hold each other's hands.
it'll be just you and just me, alone.
no pressure or schedules to keep, just you and me, as one.

we are stronger together and the whole is better.
forget your troubles and erase your past.
we'll steal a car and drive real fast.
we'll hide away from the world.
it'll be just you and just me, alone.
no phone or t.v.'s, just you and me, undistracted.

the two of us make it the best of us.
we're so perfect together.
let's never change or be apart.
forever our names will be entwined in history.
let it be said we were just being you and just being me, alone.
no lies, no secrets, and no promises unkept, just you and me, satisfied.

My Beloved One

I could stare into your eyes all night.
My beloved one.
You’re the fire in my eyes.
You’re the hope in my heart.

Nothing starts without me thinking of you.
My beloved one.
There’s only you on my mind when I dream at night.
You’re my miracle.

Life would be dark without you.
My beloved one.
I can’t pretend I’m Mozart writing perfect music to be remembered forever.
I’m all thumbs.
I mess up a lot.
But you still love me.

You’re still here.
My beloved one.
I couldn’t live without you.
My days would collapse and the nights would laugh.

If you ever left me they’d have to bury me.
My beloved one.
Without you I’d come undone.
Love is fickled.
You can take it or leave it.
You’re the reason why I bother to breathe.

I look into your blue gray eyes and the world grows brighter.
My beloved one.
Let me love you forever.
You’re my priceless treasure.
You’re my universe.
You’re the glue that keeps me together.

I’d shatter into nothingness if you left.
My beloved one, your voice calls to me.
Your laugh is music to my ears.
We can live happily ever after in the middle of the middle class.
I’ll hold you tight.

Your heartbeat against my ear fills me with joy.
My beloved one, stay.
I love you today and I’ll love you tomorrow.
You will always be my beloved one.

I’ll covet every minute I get to share with you.
My Beloved One.
I’ll store up your love to see me through the hard times.
I know one day even you have to fly on your own.

My beloved one, never forget your way back home.

Red Tape

I’m sitting in limbo floating outside myself suspended from time as I watch the world pass me by. This black hole I fell into leaves me depressed and lonely. All I want is for you to hold me. What paper do I fill out for that to happen?

I’d sign it today. What’ the next step? Where do I go now? Is there another line for me to wait in? Another place to call? I’d move the moon to the sun if I thought it would get you here.

Tell me my next step and I’ll take it. Anything for you. I look around and I see every where we should be. My hopes are up in the air. Government agencies are trying to shoot them down. But I can’t stop loving you. I made a commitment to see this through, however long it takes.

No matter how deep the pain or how many times I cry. Please give me the next step. What the next step in this madness? Direct me. Show me the line. I’ll wait until I die.

Hand me the paper and I’ll sign it in blood. This is real. No games for me. Tell me my next step and I’ll take it. I’ll do anything for you.