Second Chances

second chances are rare.
i don't know where this will lead but i'm going to enjoy it while i got it.
years fly by until you see the end up close and personal.
the older i get the more i understand why nothing works out according to your plans.
now i hope for the best and pray the worse will never come.

hold on, sit tight, close your eyes, make that wish but don't forget to try!

second chances should be celebrated.
i'm amazed with the changes yet stunned how much is still the same.
the years have matured us both.
i see now why we ended back then but now i know how we can last.
the older we get the better we get along.
now i'm ready to take your hand and pray this time it won't go wrong.

hold on, be strong, wrap your arms around me and don't forget to feel!

second chances aren't a movie.
i don't get to write the ending.
happily ever after is a series of choices we have to make together.
but i'll enjoy replaying every moment of this one day.
the years take away the pain but hurt's memory still lingers.
now we see how far forgiveness can take us and we pray straight from our hearts.

hold on, keep calm, open up your heart and together we will love each other again!

Incomplete

i ask you to marry me in one sentence
and downplay it as jest in the next,
but if my heart could shout
it would cry out for you to be my man!

i'm right here, but you don't see me.
i'd love to expand the world's population with you.
your shaved head, goatee, and hazel eyes have me mesmerized.
how do i take control with you when i've never had it before?

i don't want a phone smarter then me.
caves, bungee jumps, and roller coasters don't call out to me.
the adventure i seek drinks his whiskey neat.
he doesn't cut corners, is borderline ocd, and eats meat.

promises haven't been exchanged.
we make out and dry hump regularly.
the build up to something more has fizzled out.
my mental images are the only ones getting off.

i love chocolate, the color yellow, and daffodils.
i hate clowns, death, and people who mock me.
what i know about scott can't complete this sentence.
he camps, off roads certain vehicles, and loves at least 1 of his 7 children.

my file on him is as incomplete as this poem.
i think we'd set the world on fire together.
our demons can throw one hell of a party.
little petey and i could meet daily.

let's talk about our feelings.
undo the damage done by years of neglect.
i'll take your hand and understand.
i'll love all of you and not just the parts i like.

you're a whole person, both good and bad.
i want to know it all.
please show me every part of your personality.
i know it's more complicated then i think.

i'm not here to save you or fix you.
you don't need that from me.
i accept you just the way you are.
you're beautiful to me.

but you never gave me a chance to love you.
this romance was all happenstance.
now you get a faux happy ending with her
and i'm left alone and incomplete!

Unasked

are you a dream?
i try to hold you but you always disappear.
are you a drug?
the more i get from you the more i want from you.
are you real?
you're too perfect to exist.

this game we're playing leaves me confused.
you won't give me the rules.
i'm chasing your shadow on a cloudy day, but when you smile all my doubts melt away.
i deserve more.

are you for me?
i have no idea what you want from me.
are you missing me?
you say you think about me sometimes, but is it as much as i think about you.
are you going to stay?
i'm scared you'll take my heart and run away.

this one sided dialogue is starting to loop.
i'm doing as i'm told, but i'd rather have you to hold.
i'm trying to savor our moments, but they pass too quickly.
i deserve you!

are you playing with me?
i'm feeling vunerable to you, but you come across so cold.
are you going to hurt me?
i've placed my trust into your hands, but i worry you don't care.
are you falling in love with me?
i know men and women don't fall in the same ways.

i am falling helplessly in love with you.
all these questions swirl unasked and unanswered in my mind.
i think about you all the time.
i dream about you every night.
you have all the answers, but i'm afraid to ask.
what if your answers aren't what i want to hear?
i wonder if you'll ever leave her.
i kick start your heart, but she's familiar to you.

are we going to explode or fall apart?
this won't end well.
are we both going to hell?
my happy ending will be a nightmare.
are you ready to risk it all for me?
that means you will lose her and then i might lose you.

i'm ready to put it all on the line for you, are you going to do the same for me?

Carpe Diem, Damn!

now is not the time to be serious.
now is not the time to be weak.
i must pull myself together.
i am not going to weep!

now is not the time to compromise.
now is not the time to empathize.
i must put a smile on my face.
i am not going to cave!

i can not think about tomorrow.
i can not handle the future.
i have to hold on to my illusions.
carpe diem, damn!
carpe diem, damn!
i will seize this day even if it kills me.

now is not the time to make plans.
now is not the time to make amends.
i must be strong.
i do not care who is right or wrong!

now is not the time to analyze.
now is not the time to tear apart my heart.
i must be smart.
i do not want to go back to the start!

i can not dream of happily ever afters.
i am unable to see ahead.
i am here and it is now.
carpe diem, damn!
carpe diem, damn!
i am going to make the best of this day even if i am dying inside.

i will seize the day.
damn, i am crying again!