i have missed a class, a handbook, a dummies guide, a t.v. special, a documentary, something on how a woman is to find, attract, and keep the interest of a man. I screw it up every time. Or if I like him he doesn't like me or I find out a guy I like and thought didn't like me did like me. Or they just happen to find the perfect woman the week after we started going out. Or they're too busy to spend time with you. Or anyone or anything in their life is more important then you. Ouch!
Why did I think this shit would get easier with age and time? all i've managed to do is end up with a broken marriage and a long list of men I REALLY REALLY WISH i had never dated. According to all those stupid test and quizzes I'm looking for a witty, intelligent, tall, manly, funny, handy, and sweet man. Where the hell do I pick one of those up? (and i don't date blondes and redheads, they just don't flip my switches)
I give up. My OB/Gyn actually recommended I stay home and spend quality time with my cat until my Man judgement improves. I told her if I did that I'd never date or have sex ever again. But it looks like that's going to happen anyways.
i know my mind doesn't work like most mind's work, and i'm afraid if i find a guy that gets me then he'll be just like me, which would drive me nuts. I'd hurt him. Nothing more annoying then living with someone that is a LOT like you (sorry baby G).
it's so bad to want to watch a movie snuggled up to man instead of a cat that bites and claws you if you try to pet him.
oh, well, i guess you get what you give. i don't trust myself to date right now. i'm too jaded and cynical to believe any word that comes out of the opposite sex's mouth.
I give up. I'll see how I feel about dating, men, sex, and the whole brutal world of male/female dynamics after the new year. Maybe this Christmas i'll get a miracle, but i sincerely doubt it.
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